2011

The plan for 2011? I think it's gonna be pretty simple . Try to settle down in NZ.Get adapt to their study method and don't fail in exams,LOL. I think it won't be too boring to stay in my new flat,the clubs are like 2 minutes walk from my place and the entrance fee is FREE,which is a good sign for a light drinker like me XD

For all the sins who i have commit in 2010,i won't beg for forgiveness, as it has already be done. Make quite a number of wrong calls, took some lousy shots and bang some idiot car. I guess it's a process of learning. In a hard way or not,doesn't really matter after all. Taking an assumption of this,banging a ugly chicks does make you looked like an idiot,but in the process,u will realize how ugly she is,thus you won't bang any inferior one anymore. This is lesson number one. Lesson number two would be she is so ugly until it gives you nightmare every time you tried to sleep ,thus making you don't have the guts to for ugly shit again. This kind of comparison make it sounds so damn wrong,LMAO

Setting a target is really hard,i can't imagine what will i become when i go over there. Getting a girlfriend sounds not bad?Either way,i just wanna lay down for this year. Try to keep low profile, and tried not to do some dumb ass mistake again=.="

Happy 2011

2010

Actually i don't know what have i done for the past 364 days? Getting into a Uni,which is after all not my desired one kills off the mood at times. No doubt i manage to know some friends which are at times really fun and joyful.But at the end,i don't really think i got the kind of soul mate like in college. Partly due to the fact i am leaving for sure,i don't really leave much more mark on that uni. After all, everything in there sucks. From the lecturer to the management till the facilities,everything is worthless piece of shit . Glad i still have a bunch of friends to share my laugh at times. Perhaps I think it's a blessing to get to know them.

Day passing with my bond with my college mates getting further and further. May be everyone knew it will comes except me. At time i don't really wanna grow up. Growing means extra burden,extra commitments. But still,i manage to have a small gathering with most of them during my birthday,which is consider fortunate as i got the most number of attendances for my birthday. The good sign is Nel got herself a boyfriend,who suppose to be quite nice i guess,i don't get to know him at all.Farrah and Jon are in the stable zone,which has no surprise at all .Though he is leaving to aus,i don't see a problem arising for this two. I have no idea what has happen to Sean,cause i only meet him like twice this year, but he is getting into the mature trend,going to clubs,and i think he is doing pretty fine. Matthew is the stubborn fellow who has no changes at all,addicted to Dota, study,,manga,anime and his usual eating pattern. Ben is having quite a harsh time in Imu, trying to survive in the so called pressurized world of medicine. Really has not much time to meet him nowadays due to complicated time table, or sometimes we do have to admit,we are lazy. Kai lun is rusting in Russia,really hoped he can cope with it.May be get herself a hot russian chick?Ops,i have no doubts Yee thong will kill me for saying this. Speaking of her,well,i don't get to see her at all.Same applied to Kai zia who is missing in action all the time. Chai yee is back from Aus,but again the same thing,she is too busy with her friends. To tell you the truth,i didn't actually wan all this to happen,but what cam we do?Everyone has their path to walk on, I guess the memories are fading. And i almost forgot victor who suppose to be in Ireland,but having vacation in US,wait,was it UK. No idea at all. This is how our college mates get separated,till the part even the damn son don't know his mom get stung by jelly fish. Reality does hurt isn't it?

The ending of 2010 would be getting closer to my high school mates. Went to clubs,drinking alcohol seems like are the things we gotta do for sure. But,it is a good sign. At least i hope they will still remember my presence. Glad i make it up for the past. OH ya,got my first serious accident at the end of the year,the whole bumper crashed. Seriously taking it as a harsh lesson,to value my life,and to drive more carefully. RIP to CJ mother who has pass away in an accident. Glad you make it through that period.Be strong,my friend. And to R,who broke up not long ago. Dudes are everywhere,learn to let go...

Never be

Getting visa done mark the end of my disastrous process which resulting me coming up to kl more than 3 times.Getting ready and waiting to fly is a process i have been ready to take up,not until today.Back from Thailand, went to clubs with friends, getting ready to work before flying should be a continues process.But,something went wrong. The wrong part being i realized i love my parents so much after all this time. Going oversea,leaving everything,never in my life i would realize such feeling is so hard to be bear.Things which are meaningless to me for the past few years seems to be the most important thing for now on. Leaving Malaysia is my dream,but leaving someone who is so important in my life for 2 years,it's such an unbearable situation. No one can actually understand me nowadays. I tend to get the frequency of getting emotional all of the sudden.Every time such feeling appears,i realized all my friends will be at their own. I 'm not blaming anyone for that, somehow i feel that it is a sign,a sign notifying me to be stronger. Yet,i collapse. The true is, i collapse without a warning. I rejected a job which is in my hand, i'm going home. I wanted to spend more time with my family,as i know,i won't be seeing any sooner after February 15th..Forgive me for being such a weakened person,i don't intend to be,but i really can't let go. Realizing the importance other than money is such a hard task. I learned it today,to back down when the times are right.

Treasuring everything i have for now,as there will be nothing but ashes afterwards...

BAD MOOD

seriously not in the mood!

Accident

A normal futsal day turn out to be an accident which cost my back bumper to crash.The left part is totally crashed=.=" It's my mistake to make a u turn there,but is she blind? I'm pretty sure there is no car when i turn.So you can imagine how fast she is driving.If she brake a little bit earlier,things like this ain't gonna happen. But what can i say?It's a SHE,and she is a Malay. The only thing worst than kicking your ass is to involve an accident with a female.

I gonna waste like 2k to fix my damn fucking old car. I'm the one who is stupid enough to make a u turn at that fucking spot after all. Lodge a report just now,and i really don't want to talk about the coffee money and Malay rights here. It is pointless...all my mom said is...drive safely next time...LAME, but it's a fact

What's the point

Frankly, i was really piss for the whole day.Except brightening my day with friend telling me he will let me stay in subang for 1 month, my mind is really fucked up. I went for badminton today,with my hometown friends,as they have finished their exam. Well,i will skip the badminton part,cause i really not into this sport. Hanging out and chilling out with them at night is alright,but no one actually realize i'm really sad. Sad to be put in such situation. Disappointed to be in such dilemma. There is nothing i can do to stop such art. I have no right to control ones life,but why it has to me.Why must one's action will have such miserable impact in others' life. It is so unfair to both of us,but what can i do?I'm so helpless, i'm praying for miracles each day,hoping i don't have to bear such tremendous pressure,but i have failed. I learned to let go at times,but volcano eruption will always happen without warning. I need to learn,i need to bucked up, i still need to bear such guilt for a certain time.

no point hating someone that you can't control in your life. Unfair,but it's the honest truth. LIVE with it,die with it..

I think no one can actually understand what m i talking about,which is a good thing after all.

Slow Counting Down

Went for a basketball game in Abdullah Court today.Warming up with 2 small kids while waiting the high school gang to appear and chase the kids away.Reason?They wanted to play full court! Getting older does have lots of advantages,such as you will always being asked to join in. These kids seriously can run,i run full court for 15 minutes,finish some lay ups and some shooting,i started to feel the impact of getting old.As usual when tired,i tend to stay at one side of the court waiting to play chickens.LOL,still manage to get some easy layups.After all,they are kids,it's so easy to prank them. The major talking for the whole evening is i'm driving without license.Imagining there is a damn police block in front,well if that happens,i am seriously dead.I can't even bribe the coffee king as i only bring my car keys along,LOL..At the end,of course i make it to the safe land in one piece,for that,i would love to have thanked all the policemen for their laziness in the evening.Thank you so much~

Well,i left like 70 something days in Malaysia. No matter how i gonna face it,it's sad to leave. Leaving as in i won't come back so soon.So soon as in two years. 2 years is what it takes to make our friendship distanced even further. I remembered clearly the very last time pm14 organized a gathering. All it takes is just few blinking of eyes,few breath of air,and everyone changed. Some are following the mature trend,while some remain the same. the honest truth is,things will never remain the same again. When can we organize another trip together?When can we actually share our laugh like what we used to be.As reality check in, i wonder can we actually called ourselves brothers anymore? The family bond is loosen, we have to admit physical accompanies remain the most dominant force which enclosed our friendship.Yet,everything is starting to get out of shape.Is this the end of everything??Can you guys actually still remember my presence after two years. I'm afraid.I am living in fear i might actually demolish your figure in my mind.Reluctantly,everyone will start to forget each others.Such a cruel statement to be made yet it is so true.

Staying in hometown,accompany my mom,playing with computers,playing basketballs made me realize i really miss school time. I do admit the few gathering i have with my high school mates are some of the highlights in my life. I never actually know it can be so fun.Too bad clock is ticking,and i only can hope we can have few more gathering before i fly.But first,i gonna wait till you guys finish your exams.Anticipated the time we go HUAT again!!

Can anyone actually understand how i feel?Things which are in my gasp, and i'm letting it go because i have to,but the feeling is hard to bear.Seriously don't know what the hell is wrong with my mind right now. Forgive me for posting an emotional post..but besides being emo,what else can i do?

I miss everything...Counting down seriously SUCKS

Again

The truth is...i'm not a good friend.

Sorry,nel

I didn't know she is sick...

Dilemma Over

For the past few weeks i have been searching for jobs, tons of replies stuck up my pathetic inbox.It's not really hard to find job.the toughest task is allocating a place for me to stay.Anus Pang is kind enough for me to stay,but due to strategic problem,i have to reject,for that,i feel a bit sorry in a way,though i know he won't actually care,LOL.And then of course the story continue with i found the job i want.Selling ice cream for 10 bucks per hour.Intended to go for an interview,which is actually pointless,because i know i will get the job,cause the interviewer is a she,ROFL,and of course they need people urgently,which is the main point,forget the first factor,thank you.

Mom suddenly came with a bang "Boi,you don't go work, December follow me to Thailand." To tell you the truth,i don't feel like going,but then this would be the last trip i can actually spent my time with my mom for the next two years.I wanted to spare more time with my mom.In the same time i wanted to earn money to buy stuff.At the end,i chose to hibernate for 2 more weeks and follow my mom to Thailand.I don't feel like missing this chance to go for a trip with my mom.It has been so long since the last time we spent time together. As for money?Well,just like Chili said...i can earn up to NZ$ 200 per day during summer break.What for aiming for 1k ringgit per month for now.

I should value my remaining time in Malaysia,instead of thinking how much i can earn per month,the figure will never exceed 2,and my aunt just bank in 2k to my account =.=" Heard she got a paid raise again.So officially,i can self proclaim,i would rather rust in my home!!Forgive me for being so useless,but i wanted to do something which is more meaningful to me...at least few more photos with my mom..

Who to be blamed

What's the point of hating a 61 years old old man?You know u hate him,but he is so old,what's the point of making your stand so hard. Life will be tougher but it's time to make a brace of yourself. To accept him and move on with your life.Disappointed but who to be blamed?

Time is running out

What can you do when you have the ability to freeze the time.Unfortunately that's not gonna in my type of world. As i am breathing now,i know there is not much time left in Malaysia,a land corrupted with idiot politics but full of memories which mold me up. Chili asked me who will i miss when i go to NZ.The answer is actually really easy to be answered.Yet, i don't know how to reply her at the beginning.I'm trying not to think of it as long as i wanted it to be,but clock is ticking,there will be a time where i really have to say good bye. Though i'm rusting at home,i still hope time can moved slower even just by a fraction of seconds. Can i really let everything go when i really take off?This question circling around me every night before i closed my eyes. Two years without seeing my mom,my high school punkies,my college mates..i know i will miss them from the bottom of my heart...i know i will........

Insecure

Another fellow asked me again,the same old question which has circling around me for years.Why don't you have a girlfriend?To tell you the truth,i don't know the exact answer,LOL..

The most simple plain reply will always be the same: NO PEOPLE WANT!

alright,i'm done with this post!

EMO?

Lately i received lots of complains.Some said my blog made them emo?LOL,i seriously doubt myself having such potential to do so. I wonder since when i become such an influential person. But the truth is, i'm getting really used to it.Today i text with few person.None of them actually realized i'm very emotional.I think for the past few years has seriously taught me how to control my feelings.The hatred of being in such uncomfortable condition, the feeling of getting hurt,a thought full of disappointment, i guess i'm getting really used to everything nowadays. Learning is hard,but to accept it is even harder. No matter how sucky it turn out to be,the true fact is,we all have to face it.After all,this is Life.You can always faced it with laughs and joys,but there will always be time where your heart sunken in a deep ocean, You're trying to avoid the sinking by hiding your feeling,showing your tough side in front of others.Well,i don't act tough anymore, i was forced to toughen up.It's not about looking things in a positive way or what,it's just a choice to be made.Normally things won't happen according to our plan.We will definitely live our lives with regrets, but within the regrets, we learnt something. Some with our family,some with our friends,some with the one you love.That moment is what define us...

This is for you

I saw one status in facebook weeks ago.I didn't actually pay much attention to it.The status is really simple,yet it is so true.Growing up is really not fun at all. As we grow older,we tend to have more responsiblity. We need to learn how to deal with not just homework and lousy and boring classes anymore. But,we have to face it no matter what happens

Life is really great when it comes to family and friends.I believed in what most of us believed in.I'm blessful to have a mom who loves me so much,who cares for me,who gives everything to me Yet,i'm taking it for granted.Selfishly i need to bear it with my own eyes to see her work as hard as she can to support my studies.If i'm not going oversea,she by now should be able to retire and go travelling and enjoy her life.Same applied to my dad. Sometimes it is really hard to make choices in life.Things that i wanted for years,which eventually granted with my parents hard earned money.Yet,i feel so bad for myself.All i can do for now is to promise myself i will study hard and take care of them in the future.I learned to toughen up myself,by casting no doubt with my ability,i shall rise up to the challenge,worked my heart out to let them enjoy their life when they are old.This is such a strong statement to be fulfilled.i have to been through a process,a process we called maturity before i can fulfill the statement i have just make. It's time to grow up.From a boy,to a teenager,from a teenager,i am preparing myself to be a man.A man who take care of his parents.

I want to be that man...

Visa

After 4 trips to kl,with lrt and buses as my transport,i have submitted all the documents to Selset,the agency dealing with my Visa to NZ.hell yeah it has been a tiring journeys,with lots of fuck up incident with it. Last Friday i receive another heart attack!.It was early in the morning and the indian guy,sorry dude,forgot your name again :p called me.He told me that the Foreign Affair Ministry do not accept runner or representative to apply letter of good conduct for students anymore.The student have to go to Wisma Putra themselves to get the letter of good conduct.My mind was telling me,WTF!!!!I jump out of the bed,put on my jeans and rush to the office.The office is nearby taylors while i'm staying nearby Subang Parade.It took me just 3 minutes to reach there,LOL.when i open the door,i saw the indian guy still calling others and informing them the bad news,LOL.And he was quite shock to see me!LOL.While i was figuring out how to go there by public transport,i received another phone call.I think god seriously show me some mercy that day!The indian guy told me he needed to go there,and he can give me a lift.The time is 2.50pm when we started our journey and the place closed at 4=.=" I can tell you wisma putra is a fucking jungle! Putrajaya is seriously a place with a failure name tag!all thanks to our beloved two faced Mahathir,we got a big open space with lots of partially developed buildings and houses.Z,i will stop the politic issue for now,get sick of it everytime i think of it.For once and for the rest of the times,SCREW the government with its pathetic policy.How can you suddenly change the rules and asking people to follow it without any notification?ARe you guys brainless?Yes,i answer it for you!The good news is i get the whole process done in a quick time.Seriously need to thank Selset for the ride,because i think i won't be able to reach this place by public transport,and taking a cab will cost me like =.=" Well, let's forget the figures.

I Support Chee Li Kee

emotional

Nowadays i realize i tend to piss people when i'm down,or we should use the term-EMO.This few days i share my laugh with my mom,talk crap with my aunt.Yet,deep inside my heart,i feel so sofiscated with my life.I'm making a decision which might eventually change my life,or a mistake which will ruin money,with lots of figure on it.I'm not worry i will fail,i'm just concern with i can't leave everything behind.I start to appreciate my friends more,i start to develop the sense of trust among you guys.But it will torn apart when our distance become further and further.College friends are a good example.I miss the old time,but there is nothing much that we can to do to have that kind of gathering again.Everyone is far apart from each other.Everyone is busy and carry on with their life.There will be less time to show concern to others.At times it is not that we are being selfish,it is the far distance that start to torn everything apart.We still will be in contact,but the time will be lesser and lesser and eventually,there will be and end for everything.Leaving this fucked up country has always been my dream for many years.It almost shatters when i was in college,now i have a chance to in pursuit of my dream again,but the feeling doesn't feel as exciting as it used to be.Partly is due to the fact i have become a creature with more emotions.High school friends are getting closer and closer,i tend to be more appreciate those moments we spent together.Sometimes a clueless mind is what it takes to ruin the atmosphere.Guess at this particular moment,it really ruin me for a while..I need sometime to cool my heads off.May be i'm getting more and more frustrated with the visa application which is a pain in an arse.DAMN NZ immigration with all its sticky rules.Letter of good conduct,financial guarantee letter,college reference and many more is killing me softly.Hope i can sort all this shit out ASAP.

Treasuring what i have...at least for now,i feel blessed with the people surrounding me

High School till now

Since primary school life has been really sucks to me.To an ass hole who keep sneeze behind me and split his fucking saliva to my hair in standard 5,to the extend of betraying friendship due to 20marks.I think school life has been terrific in a way which i dislike it more than i enjoy it.Yeah life changed pretty much when enrolling into college.The sense of belonging among the gang made me become more open towards others,to someone who we called brothers,it has become a bond which mold my identity.But still,there is a sense of under accomplishment with the high school gang.Yesterday night was a day to remember,not because of how i hook up a girl,nor how well i dressed in the club,it's the taste of brotherhood which i lack of in High School.Having tat kind of feeling is undeniable one of the moment which i should have treasured for many years to come。At one point i'm living a life full of regrets,full of betrayal.But i guess i'm feeling much better now.At least from this moment,i can say it out loud,"my high school gang is one hell of a crazy bunch of people!"I'm just glad,glad i can still have the luxury to enjoy the friendship i lost in high school.For that,i'm grateful.For that,i would love to say thank you,for being able to be part of this group

FALSE ALARM

The good news is i don't have the damn mother fucking virus in my stomach,but the bad news is most probably i will got gastric pain if i didn't take control of my diet and food intake,this problem will proceed.From now on,i need to take some kind of gastric medicine for weeks.In the same time,need to be very careful with the hygienic level of the food.

Haiz...control control and control...

The thing i feared the most

I am having a mild constant abdominal pain ever since i got the fucking food poisoning in Penang few weeks ago.I got an injection tat time,and ever since then,this problem proceed until now.Doctor suspect i got hepatitis,undergo a blood test today.Sometimes i really will ask myself,are you really afraid of dying?I admit i'm afraid.Bearing to see my friend mom passed away tragically,i'm really sad for him,in the meantime i'm really scare.Things and phrase like what if keep popping out in my mind.I have completed the first phrase in my life.Regrets,sadness,and every possible thing that hurt me,ruin me,actually making me to become a better person.The second phrase is about to begin,i really hope i can fulfill my own expectation,to fulfill the duty as a son to take care of the family.

I really hope Friday report will be a good one,i still have so much thing to do...This is not the right time just yet...

First time again

I got my first moment again,this time it would be the tyre burst incident.Some stupid nail pierce into the tyre,and i guess you all know the remaining story.Went to have bah ku teh with chun den them.As usual,he will present his talk cock skill to all of us,accompanied by crap talk by the gang.Afternoon activity would be playing basketball with them.Ended up losing to a bunch of small kids.I don't really play,as i can't run much.Most of them are going back their Uni tomorrow.And the boring days lies long ahead.Guess i will find myself a job real soon.Right after i went to KL to settle off some business and perhaps gather with UCSI gangs.After all,this would be my last outing with them i guess.Life is really meaningless right now,really wanted to go back to Uni soon.And my damn offer letter haven't arrived,which is a pain in a fucking bucket.ZZZ..another day passed,with the burst tyre being the highlight of the day,LOL

Speechless night

Went to visit chun jiat just now.It's so hard to bear the tears when i saw him.He looked so exhausted.Knowing him for so long,this is the first time i saw him like this.I tried to hold my years by eating chewing gums.But that feeling seriously sucks to the max.His brother,his sister and all his family members are moarning for such tragedy.Life really like to play a twist in our life.The moment he told us,need to appreciate the moment u spend with ur parents,oh damn that line seriously make me feel so down.Truely,we need to appreciate what we have when we still have the chance.I think i will never understand how he feels right now,i feel so damn sad,but i'm sure no one is hurting more than him does.Besides telling him to be strong,i really don't know what else can i said.May god help him get through such period of sadness

RIP,aunty

Appreciate everything we have,never forget what our parents did for us.Never ever forget..

Praying for miracle

I was kinda piss with myself.Like what Ernest said,i really failed.Staying in SGT, just meet up with him few days ago,and i only get the news after someone staying in Canada asked me what happened.12 lives left us on this black day,10th October 2010, what hurts the most is it involve someone we know.The very last time i meet with his mom is during primary school.I still remember clearly how she looks,but all these doesn't really matters anymore.She has gone to heaven,resting in peace right now.At times,i really doubt how fragile a live can be.Within that moments,someone we know is hurting externally and internally.I didn't dare to call him, because i don't know what the fuck i should say to comfort him.I don't know how he feels,how hurt he is,how painful is him for losing someone so important in his life. Everyone are born to live,to taste highs and lows in life,but why life aren't fair enough to spare some mercy to those who never do any sin to this world?I know god is fair,everything are destined to happen, but i don't know why it has to be him and his family.It's just so so not fair.

When we left high school,we tend to get separated due to the distance.But everytime we meet up,there are always joy and cheers to chat with you.I feel really sad,i' mtrying to hold my tears,trying to act normal,trying to control my emotion when i think of this incident.To uncle who is still in ICU,i pray to god sincerely from bottom of my heart,please allow him to open his eyes again,to see his beloved son again.Please don't leave him and his family just yet.Please,god for the mercy of his soul,please allow him to continue this journey with his beloved ones..

Of course i won't start to point fingers at those MCA and UMNO babi at this stage.It's just so useless to do such thing.They are totally hopeless.I'm leaving this sick country, full of corruption,full of one sided race and the worst, a government who thinks nothing for his people.I'm just so tired to see everyone pointing fingers at each others.Those who act sad in front of the victim,act dumb and then act as representative of the people to say they will take legal action on those who are responsible for the accident.We all know that is not gonna happen.After all,this is Malaysia,a country full of pathetic politicians and the people who deserve way better than this..

Praying hard,hoping for miracle to happen, RIP to all the victims,and for most,our beloved aunty.Be strong,my friend

BALLS are getting smaller

Attending one wedding dinner today in melaka.It's actually my parents friend dinner.This fellow is damn fucking rich,can be said a big tycoon in tyre business.Ok,cut the crap,the real thing i wanted to say is,i'm getting more and more ballless,for the whole day i have been scopping for any hot chicks,obivously those aunty are out of my sight,and it turn out the beer girl are quite hot.But,the thing is i'm getting more and more thin face nowdays.I don't dare to do anything at all.Is it because of my parents are around?Or it's just that my skill are rusting?Or am i trying to be a good boy now?I feel kinda confused right now.May be i really lack the real deal to apporach ladies after all.All kinds of bullshits are nothing when you canot perform the killer blow at the end.May be i have been hibernating too long at home.May be it's a good thing after all.Please forgive me for being so random,LOL...

What's on my mind

The first news is,i sprain my ankle again,the same old spot,left ankle.Got it while playing futsal with Anus Pang them.It's getting really irritating at times but i should blame myself for forgetting to bandage it while doing any sport.It's gonna take like 5 days before the major part healed,and it is gonna take like weeks to heal completely..The worst part,i need to attend wedding dinner in tis coming Sunday.Fuckard to the max,zz

Second part,sometimes i really wonder why human are mean to be forgetful?I thought friendship are mean to be erternal,esecially the one i have in college.It truely define me,but as years passed,as each of us tend to get on to our life,our distance has become further again.Meeting up with new frens tend to make plp forget.I guess distance after all is the most mortal tool to end an friendship.May be i'm getting emo all of the sudden,but i really miss pm14,as a matter of fact,i kinda miss Uni life,although i do know i never belong there.They are a bunch of nice mates,but it's jsut not mean for me like what i have in college.I'm mixing better with my high school frens nowaday.Partly it's due to the fact we haven't mix for quite a while,so we tend to be more formal everytime we chat...Of course there are some like Anus Pang who did cursing all the time,i but i'm kinda glad,at least it allows me to forget my past at certain point of view.

My blog is so fucking dead until the point i only got one visitors nowdays.and i really miss her,but it's so hard to date her out.May be my skils aren't good enough for her...what else can i say,she is an Ex dino girl..Ain't gonna expect the date to happen so fast...

I hope i can get my damn offer letter as soon as possible,it's getting really annoying to check my mail box and there aren't update from Otago

I miss my frens...when is our next trip?when is the time i can truely blow water again??ZZZ

Happy Birthday,Dad

All i wanna said,,has also been a same routine each year.Unfortunately,this will be the last time i can say it out face to face,at least for the next 2 years..Happy Birthday,Dad...i know we argue a lot,i know the difference in personality somehow made me become more and more defensive towards you.At times the edge of selfishness tend to conquer me to think of something bad,which i never mean it.Because of that,i would love to say sorry.But i can assure you,i will build my own destiny without your money when i graduate in the next 2 years.It will be an accomplishment if i can do that to prove my worth in the family.It's nothing personal,it's just that i'm too proud of myself.Life passes,everyone is getting older,i do noticed you have become older,face has more wrinckles,getting balder day by day,but i hope your heart remain strong.No matter what type of conflict we went into,you are still my FATHER..

Happy Birthday,Dad

Returning

After so many months of time wasting,money spending,sleeping,doing nothing and day dreaming,finally i think i'm in the mood to start posting stuff again,LOL.Is has been a really boring daily routein i performing nowdays.While waiting for offer letter,the only thing i do is sleep,eat,and on9..plus watching some tv..I can't understand what kind of life i m having now.I missed the old time,where at least i can have a normal life...really miss my frens...

Lost of Inspiration

Somehow i just don't feel like to update any post lately.Lost the touch on it,partly due to the sad fact finals is coming,and all those midterm and assignment is piling up.Gonna finish my last test on this coming Monday.Then final will arrive.Somehow i feel superbly relax about it.Just trying to carry on with my life for now..peace and out

Grateful

Before i start anything,i would just say this is gonna my most emotional post ever,not because it will be the longest,it is just that it represents how grateful i am to know a bunch of friends who value me as much as i treasure them.Yeah,it has been so long since the day i step into pm14.It has become a trend to start a every single emotional post with the first scene i saw in Taylors.Damn,it is so hard to forget the shinny bald head guy,where i reluctantly sit with him.Yet,it turns out be the fate of my life.The Banana girl who i get close to after a while,the cocky son of the bitch who acts cool all the time turns out to be such a nice company to be with.And of course,a brother who always take care of me,lending a hand when i in shit holes,the sister in law who has now become a part of my brother's life,has always giving me the courage and confidence to excel.I do admit i am extremely grateful and thankful to have you guys to appear in my life.Besides the joy and tears we shared and shed together,it's the sensational feeling we experience together which makes our bond stronger than ever.Conversation with the bald guy is purely about joy since the first day we met.From wearing the same colored shirt to the extend of same colored boxes,there is nothing which we can't chat about.May be that is the time i asked myself,Is he my best friend?But then i tend to realize i shall never judge a friendship just because of who he is.I do admit at times i was kinda piss when he value and care more bout his love stories than the time we chilled together.Then,i started to realize what is the meaning of friendship.i started to know how to value them,preserve them by looking at at a different perspective.I found that it is really hard to choose when you are at the position where both side are important to you.I started to learn to let go at times.I think that is the real moment where i truly appreciate our friendship.Because i know,friends are easy to make,good friends are hard to find,best friend?well,they was so rare until the edge of extinction.Let's continue with the banana mom.Besides knowing your Chinese is getting better,we hardly see each other nowadays.Partly it was due to the fact that we are busy with our uni life,Everyone changed as time passed.Regardless of good or bad,it doesn't change anything.Hell yeah distance will always tend to torn our relationship apart.NO matter how hard we tried to preserve them,there will be times when we tend to forget who we are,who we love the most,who are our friends.It's understandable,but i believe one thing will never change.It's the family bond between us which made us still attach together.It is clearly shown every time we met isn't it?I firmly believe we still care for each other.Fuck the distance,screw the timetable.After all,we're family^^Love you always. The big sized guy is next.Well,i don't feel like talking the same old story again.It gets bored at times.The act cool guys who turned out to be such a crazy dude.To be honest,i feel so freaking touch when you purposely come all the way back for my last birthday.That feeling,the sensation of having you as my friend,is pouring towards my soul.I'm so glad you can make it.To all the times we shared together,to all the shits we caused.Cheers!and RAWL!!@@ Bro,still remember how we bump into each other during the Genting trip?Phew,i haven't see each other for such a long time back then.The last meeting was during Chinese new year i guess? For once i really wanna let you know how thankful i am when you lend a hand when i fall to the darkest hole.Yeah,i will never forget that dark incident,the incident which determine and change my perspective on LIFE.I'm so glad i can have you as a brother.Nowadays we rarely see each other,do we??But i stick with what you told me in the car that day.'Yeah,my uni mates are nice,they are a bunch of good friends,but the feelings and joys we shared in pm14,it is something which will never be replaced again' Never agree better on this statement...

To my family
To my friends
Though times and distance will torn us apart,but we shall never forget the day we met each other,everything we shared will always be,and i definitely will...

ETERNITY THEM IN MY HEART FOREVER...

Player vs Loyalist

At times when things seem to be so smooth,it become more prone of getting yourself into some kind of shit which make you trigger your brain cell to think again and again,who the fuck m i.I really wonder what kind of person i'm..Sorry to be born with a player face,but am i really qualify to be a player.The most important part would be am i capable of hurting people while myslf is so unaffected.I doubt my ability,i doubt whether can i withstand the impact which may change my whole life o not.I guess my decision not to stick on 1 relationship has so far proven to be correct,as i called myself player,but i won't be able to let go once i hold on to it.I guess i'm those selfish stubborn type of person...Can't fall in love with someone so easily,i simply can't~Afraid of being hurt,afraid of being alone again,i remain to be my own self,finding the trill of life but unable to value them in my heart...Sorry for being so senseless,forgive me for being so cruel to you

Dispress vs moody

A simple hell has just pass through,imagining 3midterm is killing me softly and painfully,i slept at 3 everyday for 1 whole week.As a result,my face who supposingly to be silky smooth came out with another 5 more pimples,it's the annoying type,deep penetration into the pores which require lots of time to heal.Again,facial,mask typical routine and time are required to let the pimples dry out,the pores minimise and apply another protection layer on it.Damn,it's so annoying everytime i sleep late,but what to do?3 midterm!!each worth 30 or 25 marks..i got no choice >.< Among this 3,i'm kinda worry bout my human nutrition and fqm,some of the question are kinda tough to me.Marketing is ok..but i don't know the result yet,just hope it won't be tat bad.After the long week,now i got nothing to do wherelese most of my frens are preparing for their midterm.At times it's so fucking boring at home,it's really clueless what to do at home where everyone else is busy.Went out with Benjamin and Matthew few days ago,meet up with kai lun who has just come back from Uk,he became kinda thin oredi,may be lack of nutrition.And of course the most happy person in the world would be Yee Thong,i know she miss him so much,LOL...Went ut with Elena who has just come back fromUK,this girl will never change,haha..Went to Sunway to watch Knight And Day.It's ok but i was expecting more from tis movie as the actor is Tom Curise and Cameron Diaz,but the movie was watchable..This week...well,except the boring part,i'm kinda moody in the sense that i keep thinking what if~~~forecasting the future is such a hard task,especially when u afaid of those negative stuff which might happen in the future,it kinda creep me out,but i know eventually i need to get rid of it.What important now is the present,i know i shall value everything i have for now more than ever,but it' just that sometimes it's hard not to think too much when the mind is daydreaming all day long.Looking forward for my birthday gathering.i hope it will be a blast~~

Gym Session

Have my first official gym session today.I think my hands are so numb now until the point i can only touch my laptop and nothing else,can't even shower properly,LOL...Lifting all those weight is really killing me,the muscle is so damn stiff when you are at the limits.The first few times when lifting the weight is easy,but as your muscle start to tense up,you will understand what is the meaning of suffer.Actually i didn't plan to be like those freaks in the gym,some can even lift up the whole thing,WTF=.="""I never intend to compare myself with Iranians and Negros,their genes are different from ours.Besides,i don't think my future girlfriend will like me to be so freaking muscular,it will look very awkward.The only reason i will go to gym is due to the fact i wanna build up my chest.Abs is not a big problem for now,not super obvious,but got the shape is enough for me,just wanna build up and harden my chest.Swimming build is just my type,I guess i will only go gym once a week,then 4 days to rest my teared muscles,then continue with swimming,LOL...I hope i can have the patient to continue doing it,though it will hurt like hell by tomorrow.For the sake of looking good,i have to get on with it.Some said the beginning is always the hardest,at least need to gear up a bit till the very next time i go to beach,hehe...till next time

Beer Feast

Yesterday midnight my housemate plan a beer feast.They bought like 6 bottles of Beers along with the cheapskate Chivas belonged to Calvin.Why i said cheapskate??Because everyone is drinking beers,Calvin alone was drinking Chivas,cheapskate!!!!Since i'm having stomachache,i can't really drink.I jut sit around and change my status to observer.My mind is clearest among all.I listened and get to know lots of stuff and feeling from them.Obviously the content is highly classified and it shall remain silent forever.Feel kinda touch everyone can actually leash out their feeling and sort out all the differences.Those touching scenes,honest truth from each other made me realize how fortunate i'm to own so many thing which others can only dream on.It makes me wonder am i qualify to,or i should say am i eligible for such fortune.Yet,at times i really wonder am i worth it.Am i worth the opportunity to explore a whole new type of experience next year and approaching the first step of my dream.For now,i don't wanna think bout it,because there is still 3 to 4 more months before everything can be finalized.I'm just glad,before i leave,i know a bunch of fellows who treat me like a family,who tease me when the time is right.Obviously there are conflicts around which makes life kinda hectic,but it is always due to all these piece of shits which drives our bond becoming stronger and stronger,especially after this kind of problem and feeling solving beer feast...For those who has their own problems and hardship,i know i'm helpless to guide you,as such matters are depend on your own hand,i won't be so stupid to say i will go through all these with you together,i know i can't neutralize your pain,but all i can do is to give you the support when you need it the most,always will...

Never regret moving to this house!

Heat pilling up

Having a can of soft drinks doesn't really solve my problem.The last quiz is on this coming Thursday and i'm so clueless on what should i study.Feel so jerk off just by looking at those microbiology books.The worst part,there is no notes,which in the same time means i have to study the books.After this quiz,the midterm week is approaching in 1 week time.Not to mention the 2 assignment which is waving to the due date,well i guess i'm gonna start busy again.WTF...why my life just can't be as simple as collecting rental in millionaire city in facebook.Midterm weeks please don't torture my soul again.Human Nutrition is a nightmare,the worst part is not the subject itself is not really tough,but the intense pressure piling up from the surrounding seniors is really freaking me out,i have no past experience in marketing and Food Quality Management as well,it's like holding a rifle hoping it will pop out one fire bullet when u pull the trigger,LOL....

I never intend to be the top in the class,that's just so not me,but i don't wan to be the last either...
Pray i can maintain my grade this semester and get the hell out of here,Amen

storm in the morning

Everything works perfectly fine this morning,until the sudden out break of the storm when she wanted to go back.It's was kinda creepy at times,but i have to learn to get used to it,and she need times,eventually she will understand the cycles in friendship.Friends are very valuable to any soul,though it's a strong statement made by me,but i believed everyone is the same.But at some point,friends are not everything.Sometimes friends can advise you on doing something,but it is you,the being bearing your own mind who will determine the outcome of those important decision in your life.Learn to let go at times won't do you any bad,i hope you don't read this now as i know you will kill me for sure,but think about it when you have calm down..Life is about friends,but overshadowed by friends is not about life anymore.

New house,new mates,new type of student life

Well,i moved in like 1 week ago,everything has been running perfectly fine.Due to the idiot streamyx guy who finally come to set up the router after months of urge,i finally can update my blog.My housemates are really nice,in the same time super crazy. I guess finally for the first time i have the taste of joy and fun like what i have been experiencing during college era.They are really crazy at times,but in the same time,you can feel the sense of joy from the bottom of your heart.May be it's just that the chemistry between us which result the house full of funny screams most of the time.Undeniable there are times where one upset each other and the situation become tense,but still,everything has work pretty well for so far.At least,you can blow water with anyone of them anytime you like,instead of facing the walls and the screen of the laptop last time..

3 months,hope the time can pass a bit slower this time.

Neway

Went out with John and the gang for the second time.This time JL,hui shan and jessie also joined up.Have an awesome and super crazy afternoon with them.Actually,that day i was suppose to join up with chin hong gang to watch Shrek in Midvalley.But somehow i changed my mind as i'm not really a big fan of Shrek=.="Felt kinda sorry for belle as she is joining them for movie as well.At the end,i just can't resist the temptation to go sing k again.The first one with Moni them was nice,so i wanted to go for it again!!

The flashy flashy Mic waiting for the crowd!
I personally felt that these VIP mic was a bit too over to be kept like this,haha

Hui Shan and Jessie!
Always wanted to go with them for at least once.@@

KL is a city full of intense stress and phone calls.Just looked at these two and u will know why...their phone never stop ringing ~~

Hui Shan and me,LOL

The typical hui shan we know.Why i never feel surprise she will stand on the crouch?oh,i almost forgot,i already get used to it,LOL

Jessie and me

Hui Shan took this photo for us.After i keep failing to take self portrait with my shaky hand at times=.="

Monica signature pose: 1
Ethan signature pose: 2

This is where the nightmare begin!This would be the first time JL go sing k.This is his very first time!!!He is no longer a virgin in sing k anymore,LOL..I guess a lot of people like Lee Hom songs.Looked closely the fellow who is holding the remote control=.=""This fellow select 3 pages of Lee Hom songs.Can you imagine every stop/next button will come out with another older songs of Lee Hom.As a result,we BARRED Lee Hom for the whole day after the first 3 pages.He made us anti Lee Hom that day.

To: Lee Hom fans,blame him!!!haha

Take 1
Looked closely~~Hui Shan was rushing to take this photo with us

Take 2
Again,Hui shan is not in the photo!

Everyone is in this photo.
Thanks to self timer mode of my camera@@

Monica and me
I don't know what's wrong with my bloody camera tat day.I think i blurred almost 6 takes before ending up with a clear photo with self time mode again.LOL

Finally~the clearer version of self portrait photo
Did i mention Monica singing ability in the previous post??This girl really can own you with her singing talent.High pitch,low pitch and whatever vocal you named,she has it all@@

The first Timer in Neway,Jun Long

Why are you laughing??

The gang

This fellow get into the situation real fast.He get really high during climax.Above is the evidence to prove JL can get high easily!

John and Me
My roommate,housemate for the next 3 months



Below is a video clip during our time in the box.These are one of those crazy moment we have in the room.Obviously the girls are better than the guys,but this song is seriously freaking tough,and i can't read some of the Chinese lyric=.="Hope you all can have a laugh watching it!

Times flies without giving me any notification.Throughout this 3 semesters,i think i really meet some wonderful people.I started to get know John and Monica in second semester.While the bonds are getting closer ,my times in UCSI are getting lesser.I know there will be a day where i need to say good bye with my reluctant heart.How wish i could i have known u guys for a little bit earlier,how wish i am to have at least one more semester with you guys.

My life has always been the same since the day i stepped into college.
I come , i leave a mark, i go
Hopefully my mark can last a little bit longer in you guys heart

DiM SuM

This is the dead boring microbiology class with a lecturer pronouncing Muggets as nuggets.70% of the class is sleeping while listening to lecture from the soul of India.

Wanted to eat more,but kinda afraid didn't have enough money.Back home,30 plates is consider very normal to me

Some of the dim sum is just average,but i enjoy the companies@@

The gang from the left :sui ping,Susu,chin hong,alice and su ai

Thursday

Started with a stupid dead bored class at 8pm with an Indian lecturer who pronounce muggets as Nuggets.After few more hours,there is Human Nutirtion class.After that,need to wait for few more hours again.Marketing tutorial starts at 3.30pm.In between every lectures,there will be a huge gap.This is the part where i hate the most,as i don't have a single clue what m i suppose to do to pass the bloody time!All my friends are having meta lab now,and i consider myself very lucky to escape the lab torturing session.But still,why the time table for this semester is so irritating,especially Thursday.It's a complete waste of time and youth while waiting for class=.="Walking back to my room at this hour is not a good option,as a matter of fact,it would be a poor choice to go back for one and a half hour with your whole body swting=.=""The sun is so fucking hot at times where you can't even open your eyes properly on the way home.Tomorrow/friday is a public holday,zzz...what am i suppose to do for tomorrow then=.=""

Ham+burger

Every Wednesday,can be consider as hamburger day.Reason is very simple,once you step into the endless route,with uncountable booth on your three o clock,and numerous stalls on your nine.Assuming you are the the most delicious slices of meat available,with stalls acting as breads from both side,with tons of people acting as vegetables,with lots of beggers acting as mayonnaise and kids as cheese,it is never easy to walk through this place.Night Market in Cheras is believed to be the longest in Malaysia.Of course it's also the one packed with visitors all night long.It so hard to breath when you walk in the crowd.It gets a bit frustrated when there are times you can't even move by a single inch.The floor is always covered with rubbish and unfinished food.At times,it's really dirty.Some of the food are nice,while some taste like shit=.="I guess i will only go under the presence of friends,or else...Pasar Malam is never my type==

Mars

When everything seems to be so hard to bear,the pressure is piling up in your shoulder,there are too much troubles for you to carry,there are too much stress which burden you,too many friends leaving you one by one.....

You don't have a choice,you have to be Mars,becoming emotionless,fearless and get rid of everything which stand before you.There is only victory for Mars,becoming Mars,accept this cruel life by coloring it with your sword and spears....

Be strong

Mega Mac

went to MacD for dinner after basketball game.Well,today performance was not really good,as usual~the lack of practice and lack of stamina wounded my performance,another factor is due the fact the fat indochinese used to play for his school,so it was kinda hard to catch up with his rhythm sometimes.Guess i need more time to get used to it after enduring a life without basketball for so long.I really need to thank my sneakers as i almost twisted my ankle when i jump for rebound during one game.Luckily my sneaker's ankle guard works well,or else i will sprain my ankle again=.=""Now it's a little bit swollen,but it's not very serious,guess it will heal after one or 2 days.For the dinner part,LOL...ever since mega mac was introduced,it has been my priority every time i set my feet into MacD,LOL.Guess it is one of those which can fill stomach when i was hungry.When i take away,i will add 2 more slices of cheese as it will be more fulfilling,wakaka..Again,have my dinner alone today.It was kinda late when i finish the games,guess by then everyone should have taken their dinner,or may be i am just too lazy to ask for them.Today still need to pretend sick for whole day for the sake of my brother,zz..i hope it is worth it for you though...But seriously reconsider what have you done so far,after all,the choice is yours

Dinner

I have my dinner just now.Again i was alone.Obviously it's not that i don't have any friends to ask for dinner together.It's just that it's very inconvenient to ask them out sometimes.Most of them staying in housing area,i really lazy to walk them back after this.There are some who are staying nearby,but they like to cook=.="Some i don't even feel like asking them out as those are the extremely weirdo who keep talking all the time,molesting my sensitive eardrums.Thinking back the line,'Oi,where are you?Gather at where??''AC?in front of Taylors better''straight to mamak which end up with playing cards' Not to exclude the few last months full of dotaing,owning and the joy of looking at your friends become feeder.Damn,i miss those moment from the bottom of my heart.I guess i'm those who value any kind of relationship after it's over.Love,brotherhood,friendship,loveship,deepship or whatever ship it is,i will start to miss it a lot.A very good example would be Joanne.To be honest,we weren't close when we are in the class.Frankly,i don't mix well with you.Your super sensitive attitude kinda freaks me out,but when everything is over,when we officially far apart from each other,i start to realize..you are such a nice friend to be when the times come,i keep on asking myself...why i never actually go and toy with you when i still have a chance.But,i know there it would be useless to regret now.All i can do now,is hope you will be strong enough to endure your tough spell in India.Sooner or later you will come back.Unfortunately by tat time,i won't be around anymore.But still,there is some chance we might actually can meet up during next year CNY.Take care and all the best...To all pm14..i miss you guys

saturday

Have my first outing with John,Monica and Keli yesterday.Never actually been an outing with them.We went to neway,and of course sing K.Learned a new principle,LOL...Monica Principle-Uni must have Uni looks,go out must have go out look.Normally this girl attire is just average.but that day she was so @@,i was kinda shock to see her outfit.LOL...and the scariest part=.="she is one hell of a singer.All her song selection are those super high pitch songs,and she can deliver them without flaws=.=""Every time she sing,me and john will keep quiet,because we can't match with her voice,or simply we don't want to spoil the song,LOL.John was sick tat day, may be he lost his touch on that particular day.Well,i guess i still have few more chances to see his real talent,haha...And the Keli=.=""i really wonder she go there to sing or simply go there to enlist songs for us only,damn swt.She hardly sing a bloody song.may be because i was there,she was too shy,LOL..Kinda sad realizing my holiday mode is gonna over soon.Freaking Quiz is just around the corner,need to gear up a bit already.It has been short yet crazy 3 weeks,spending,playing and crazying all day long,it's time to settle down...

P.S Get well soon,John
Good luck in sup,Keli
For the 5 person sick group,hope u all get well soon and accompany me go sing K!

the old gay times~

Never in my mind the botak guy during my first class will turn out the be my soul mate for life.Never in my world i can imagine the act cool fatty who used to be from pe class will become my best mate till now.It's really hard to imagine after 1 and a half years spending together can actually mold our friendship to such extend.I am proud,in the same time,i am damn fortunate to have you guys with me all the time.WTF,now it's starting to get a bit gay.Undeniable i met one hell of bunch of friends,with all kinds of characters,kai lun with his standard pattern,victor with some fuck ass attitude+big dick,Sean with his boobs idea...oh ya,the mamak store!we should go back again.Most probably all those workers have gone back to India,LOL...July 13th...can't wait for it!!!!you guys must come!i hope so,i pray so

Sense

There is only 10 days left and may is over.i can sense the nightmare of all those quiz and midterms are coming,but not so soon.Life is getting a bit lonely sometimes,especially when you come back to your room,you have no one to talk to.Guess all these are gonna change when i move to John house at the end of this.Have a new hair cut this week,at least now my hair got style already,lol.Though i wish my mom can cut for me,but i'm just too lazy,too lazy to move my butt and take the fucking smelly bus for 3 hours back home.There is not much happening stuff lately,which kinda cost me unmotivated.Life is full of rotating manuals.Wish it will change any sooner.oh ya,i am planning to throw a big party for my coming birthday this time.For those who are actually kind enough to drop by and have a view of my latest post.PLEASE make yourself available on JULY 13th..This will be the last birthday party i have with you guys

ipod nano

Went to Times Square today,and finally decide to splash the cash to buy contact lens,which cost a chump of my saving.But still i wanted more stuff,my greediness never change,it's like an addicted drug,always want more,always wanted to make myself look good,owning cool gadjets.Something will never change after all,i want to enjoy the luxuries,i wanted to enjoy everything.I guess most of us,especially at our age will experience such life,the needs to spend,the needs to waste money~~phew,,,i feel so guilty.The worst part, i also wanted an ipod nano,yet i never actually willing to pay for it.But i really wanted it,as a matter of fact,i really in love with it.it looks damn cool,especially with those newly added features,but the price is officially killing my intention off.It's just way too expensive for me to spend.To be honest,i am never a big fan of Apple,but the nano really caught my attention,simply in love with nano~~~~

Last piece

Once again i'm gonna give a complete evaluation on my present semester lecturer.Well,basically this semester trigger the experience of new things.Subjects like human nutrition, marketing are getting kinda interesting but in the same time it's getting a bit scary especially when i start imagine how much thing i need to stuck into my brain when the final approaches.Lecturer this semester is way better than the previous one,at least we have no SOhai Lee with his sickening grandpa stories,we don't have a slacker who wasted our time just by going to his class.I would say my FQM lecturer by far is the best lecturer i ever have since i came to this institute. Marketing is really interesting,but in the same thing the definition kinda annoys me as i know,i will need to screw up my brain cells again when exam approaches. Human Nutrition lecturer is kinda strict,but she done her part,and i finish my part by attending lectures.Micro is the worst among this four i guess,but at least she can talk non stop for one and a half hour,though i wasn't listening at all.But,at least this semester subjects gives me a feeling,a feeling which encourage me to attend classes.Of course the first three weeks of a new semester is a complete waste of time and youth.Of course compared with the pressure group,i,who belong to the leisure group looked damn relax.Sorry and no offence,but i just can't get the idea of start studying at the beginning of a new fucking semester!!Why would they need to be such a fucking retard at such an early stage.Well,i don't give a fucking dam,i still got 1 more week to enjoy before i actually get serious,though reports and assignment distribution is starting to alert me to be more serious.As i promised my self,time to do some bombing will start next week.Times don't fly,they disappear with every moment u blink your eyes.This would be my last semester.My last one with my ucsi mates,i really can sense our relationship is getting stronger,of course there is some ass holes won't doesn't worth to be friends with.Phew,just ignore them for now,gonna take more photos this semester.I guess that would be the only evidence my existence does exist in their life.I'm scare, i'm thrilled...but this is life,everything has an end,but i know i am very fortunate to enjoy every moment of it before it's over.

Vive la vida sin remordimientos más .. A mis amigos, gracias a Dios por permitirme conocerte chicos

Thank you for everything

Flashing back 20 years ago,born with a dry freaking ugly skins,doctors said i would need several operation to remove the mucus accumulating in my bloody nose,i was operated twice,with each operation costing 5k.I survived,but removing a big chump of money from her saving.Her,the soul who gives everything to create me,shedding bloods,withstanding the pain that last for so long,allowing me to see the world with my eyes.I was born with a lots of problems,or i should say i create a dump of mess for her to settle,for her to rush from one place to another just to make sure i was ok.I feel so helpless,i wonder why i would treat her like tat when i was small,why would i cost so much troubles to her.I have no idea how many times i was sent into the hospital when i was a fucking kid due to my dick head attitude,and overactive body.I always make her worry,make her cry.Why i was such a trouble makers when i was young.This is not a debt,it ain't gonna be any loan repayment,this is beyond what the things i care the most for now-money can be replaced.I own her everything,i own her my life.From a fucking naive kid who always takes things for granted,to a boy who always fight with others in primary school,to a guy who did so many mistakes in high schools,to a teenager who break her heart,to the present me,who selfishly requesting her to use up all her bank saving in order for me to enjoy the luxury of fresher air in oversea, i'm sorry for all the mess i have cost,i'm deeply regret for everything i did which upset you.

Thank you for loving me
Thank you for caring me
Thank you for everything
Happy Mothers day,mom

Nomad

I would say this is a new record,because this would be the 3rd time i'm moving to a new house,LOL. I have completed the tittle of nomad,as i move to 1 place per 1 semester.The funny part is while the rental around angkasa condo is getting more and more expensive,my rental is getting lower and lower,LOL,and the condition of the house is getting better and better,LOL.I will move to my friend house.Those fellows are my coursemate 2of them are from january intake,but we are in the same lecture last semester. i can't stop myself for bursting to laughter every time i think of this,because it has been really crazy.At a moment i was so desperate to find a new room after my fuck ass owner sell his house without informing us.but now the issue is settle and i will move to my new pit real soon,wakaka..Lately my housemates helping her friend to take of care of a stupid dog for 1 week.This fuck ass dog is seriously piss me off,pee and shit all the time,got even once go and pee at my sandals.I have no idea keeping a dumb ass dog is so irritating,they bark at 5 o clock in the morning,and sometimes bark non stop for unknown reason. The big bully=me of course must revenge,i go mess with its cage and steal its food,LOL.He wanted to bite me,so i take a stick and stuck into his mouth,he become more fierce and keep on barking at me,i have no idea since when i will hate dogs at this extreme rate.I guess i'm just not the dog type of person,i just feel like to throw it out of the window,or can i poison him??Oh hack can you just stop the barking for once!!!GRRRRR! The best part,i won't pay the rental for this month,who ask you( the new dumd owner ) delaying to see us and intend to increase the rental to don't know how much. I'm a avenger,i remember every shit you throw on me, and i will repay you with lorry truck loaded with 10 tons of shit at the back. i will never pay for this month, blow me if you can,LOL

Back at one

Before beginning to start writing my grandfather story,i just wanna thank god i survive the previous 6 months. Times really flies,without doubt the day i anticipated is getting closer and closer.Day by day i ask myself to allow patient to be the core of my soul.It has been a long 14 weeks for me to get through,The fuck ass assignment,the lamest words mapping, lazy and irresponsible group mates with the tittle 2R (belle,i'm not talking bout you!) the so screw up biochemistry quiz and midterm, confusing calcalus notes, dick head limits and its stupid laws, insomnia biochemistry lectures,so hai grandpa Dr lee with his sickening face, driving you nuts acids and bases, the worst final biochemistry exam paper with its "what the fuck" questions which almost ruin my chances of leaving this institute. Besides all these nightmares torturing me day and night,the rest are perfectly fine~And i think i should reverse the stuff i wrote on my previous post.At the end,the bitch turn out to be the only lecturer i listen to,the slack has no effect in my entire life, kelly is just another lecturer where you get confused and blur all the time and.....the worst of its kind,the dumb ass grandpa Lee.I pray to god,i pray to earth and i am grateful for your blessing as i shall need not to see his face for the rest of my life. The way he teach, the way he present his so called knowledge to us,is like dragging us to hell slowly without mercy.The way he set the questions,is like indirectly asking us to fail the damn stupid subject.Again,i thank every god in this world regardless of what religion and races,for enable to escape from his nightmare forever.As for course mates,erm...good luck in metabolic biochemistry +.+. As for the result part,well,i'm not very happy with it,but it's acceptable.For someone as lazy as i do,for some last minuter for always wait for the last minute to finalize everything,for a joker who know nothing but flirting around and crapping 24 7,i consider myself lucky to get GCPA 3.4. I would have done better if the biochemistry final paper is easier for a normal human being to sit for it. Good luck to those who are taking supplementary paper for biochemistry~~In this 4 months,i think my relationship with my course mates are getting better, the bond is starting to form. Belle has left us,i was expecting to see you for at least 1 more semester though,but i guess it is a wise decision you have made for leaving this shit hole. The future diet specialist,hope you enjoy to the awesomest in 5 month times!2nd semester is officially over@@,it's over to me when i get to know my result,LOL

Jonathan

First of all,just wanna say,Happy birthday,dude..I wonder why people always wish people to have a blast,but i just don't feel like to use it,it's like asking people to bomb himself,LOL.So,i ended up with a better phrase.it's ~~ Jon,have a pika pika!oh yeah~ Time passes really fast,glancing back the day where we first meet,the very first time we have our tea time due to the fact we are the only 2 not taking physic.Back then,we never actually talk to each other often.Forgive me but i have already forgotten the reason why we will end up as bros,all i can remember it has something to do with nellie,LOL..but i just can't remember. As for my first impression on you,and even until now you seems like never changing.You are one of the most laid back guy i have ever encounter.You always so cool with your surrounding.Your standard line,sure,no problem+can~ has always been included in our conversation.Somehow as time flies without acknowledge our existence,our bonds are getting stronger.After all,me,you,Farrah and Nellie are the few who are english based.Speaking of that,we have never actually chat in mandarin before,LOL..Hokkien,english and whatever language we tried to confuse Farrah except mandarin.I really missed the old time,Jon. The day we play prank on others, the days we go lepak with ur ex CRV,now upgraded already,hehe..As pm14 life ended, we tend to disconnected with each other,partly due to the fact both of us are busy getting on to our fuck ass life,full of fantastic assignment and busty workload,we hardly see each other nowadays. But still,something will never change.Our bond will remain the same,we will always watch each other back,and i shall never forget that day. The day which eventually change my perspective on life.Sometimes there are things where you can't explain in plain language,but i really wanted to say this after such a long time,thank you for showing me a hand when i fell to the deepest hole i ever step onto. Thank you for wiping my tears when i am in the weakest state. For that,i'm grateful. I'm glad you are always besides me throughout all these times.If Ben and Matthew are my soul mates,then our friendship really has something differences,We are Brothers,and brothers will never forget to wish each other...

Happy Birthday,Jon

KAmikaze

I suppose to grab a biochemistry book now and try the best possible way to stuck every freaking structure into my fragile mind.But,i just finish my second paper,instead of spending precious time to study,i really wanna give myself a day off to chill myself,recharge and let it all go once more.Talking about exam=.="well,the story shows some similarity to the invasion of Pearl Harbor. First wave of Kamikaze Fighter consisting of dive bomber and horizontal bomber has sunk 2 main battleship with their torpedo and T66 hard shell Bomb. One of the torpedo manage to hit the ammunition department of the battleship Calcalus. The damage was too hard to swallow as the main anchor suffer a serious damage in engine and cabin. The second wave has been launch this morning and it hit the Business statistic Battleship with 4 superior heavy bombers. Although the battleship remain intact,one of the heavy bomber manage to bomb one of the battleship outer shell. But still,the damage is still tolerable as the crew manage to minimize the losses.In less than 5 more days,a major wave consists of alien like space fighter will begin their assault on Chemistry 2 battleship. The crew will try their best to defend themselves, the chances of survival is thin,but worth to try. The final wave consists of F22 raptors will begin their invasion on next Wednesday. This fighter jet by present is known as the strongest air fighter known in human history=.=""Basically,this is a suicide mission as the Biochemistry Battleship will defend with every single soul live on it. After the final assault,the casualties will be brought to Genting for medical treatment.Phew,just finish second paper,yet..the worst is approaching=.=" Gonna work harder for the remaining papers!!Toughest semester is gonna end soon!!Don't give up when the opportunity arises. For myself and for those who have faith in me,the crew will continue to defend till the very end!Ho Ah

I missed my life

Wonder why my life has been so dead lately.Yes of course hanging out with course mates are still very enjoyable, Chilling and cam whoring with them is really fun,but still i still feel emptiness in y heart. Obviously i know it's never about love life. I'm leaving soon.Why should i leave a memory by saying good bye to someone i won't actually love.Doing that again and again in the past has given me the reputation as a famous player,i didn't intend to repeat the same mistake.The sin is too much to bear.Uni life continue with the fucked ass final coming in a glance of eye.Study week is about to end,yet i only manage to cover few chapters of chemistry. I didn't touch biochemistry at all.Feel sicked just by looking at those notes. Memorising all those scum ass structure really can kill.Kinda worry for business stat as i haven't do the tutorial yet. I'm going to have my first paper next Monday=.="" Yet,i feel so down right now.I'm so energyless to touch any notes, i feel like to sleep all day long but i can't sleep, all thanks to some brilliant advanced loyal mosquitoes. They will come and stalk at me every night during midnight 3 o'clock. The lamest part,they will bite the same spot,my left elbow again and again. Gotta kill all of them with shieldtox today!!Please give me the strength to continue this journey. I know i hate this Uni,as a matter of fact,i hate it since the day i get enrolled. Glad i manage to know some great friends here,but still, it's not enough,i missed PM 14 life more.. As i always remember, The tears i shed,The laugh we shared..i really miss it. I miss every moment of it...No matter what, just finish this semester and get on with it.

Worn and Exhausted

Chemistry midterm is coming,every fucking moron shit which slowly drain my soul is molesting me week by week.Although i was expecting this mess since the ever beginning,never in my life i will know it's gonna be this tiring.I haven't touch basketball for months,plus i haven't swim for more than 3 weeks.At such rate,i think i'm gonna lost the body i proud of within few more months..The good thing is...final is coming,stress but that means semester is ending soon,although the world soon means torturing our weak mind for one a half more months.All i need to do is to fullfill my promise and achieved the boundary i set for myself.It doesn't matter what result i will get,I just want my days to pass without any regrets.For once i need to remind myself,to cherish every moment i spend with u guys,because each days passed means each day lesser we will see each other again.All fucking rumble till the end of April!Ho-Ah

Natural Disaster

Just as the storm start to fade away,i sense tsunami is coming real soon.In just a matter of 3 days time,biochemistry assignment a.k.a Tornado will struck the heart of UCSI Food Science stream september 09 intake class.We have a mountain task to do,trying to prepare and stock ourselves so that we won't passed out.As soon as the tornado strike,there will be a harsh winter a.k.a biochemistry midterm coming through the day after Tornado.What makes life worse is after a week of starvation, Earthquake will rock University chemistry 2 class as the midterm will be arriving in a matter of days.According to reliable sources, we have approximately two weeks time to stock ourselves with food and water before the first wave of tsunami sinks us with Calcalus final,the second wave of biochemistry final will be consuming our spirit with the final wave chemistry 2 final completely drain our soul to hell....Natural Disaster are so unavoidable...AMEN

Bottle 21 birthday

Never expect myself to go,but ended up watching free movie by taking a wild chance to go in the cinema without ticket,bleeding my precious wallet by eating so much salmon.But,this is actually the first time i feel so much joy hanging out with you girls+2 more guys..Hard to explain without photos....Gonna update this post later^^

Happy birthday,Sui Ping
Feel glad i managed to celebrate with you at least once

March 8th

Before starting to tell the tales of the Iced Lemon Tea Guy turning 20,let's examine this photo.For your information,this is the toilet with the rental 800 per month!Of course this would include a big bath tub for maximum luxurious enjoyment for our beloved Matthew!

March,7th,Sunday

Weekends has always been the time where undergraduates like us
to take some rest,become lenient with our stressful life overloaded with screwed ass assignment and reports.It's better to skip the part on how to go to IMU through the public transport section as it will be same old grandfather story again.After having our dinner with the gang at a Chinese restaurant with some kind of hilarious name,we went to IOI mall to chill,eventually ended up to watch movie.Confucious this movie is all about history,conjuction with hardcore deep usage of Chinese which is totally out of my league.Basically,i watch through the movie with the English subtitle.It's kinda boring for our type of personality as most of us were expecting blood scene warfare with superior martial art display.At the end,Sean was moaning and waiting the staff to open the exit door.LOL
Thank you,Sean for sending me home.The timing was kinda perfect as 11.59 just pass at the moment Sean stopped his car.

19 years old Matthew at 11.59pm

Matthew is officially 20 at 0.00 8th,March

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8th March,Monday,location:Fridays
Life started with trying to adapted to slacky world,entertaining the bitch and listening to grandfather story.Riding UCSI shutter bus with a malfunction air conditioner eventually makes me sweat a lot.Thank god the bunker arrived just on time in the station.If i'm late for 10 more seconds,i guess i would have to wait for another 45 minutes.Circling around Midvalley,trying to find some stuff for Matt present,It turned out to be so freaking hard to buy a present for a guy.Spending hours walking passed shops by shops,until the point i bumped into matt and benjamin.This just show that Midvalley is not as big as it looked like.It's so tiny@@.At the end,we bought a bag for Matt.Since this guy is into black color,obviously i will find something similar to it.
We have our dinner at Fridays.Matt's father is treating us.@@.Matt and i were having the same
thing.Jack Daniel Steak.It turned out to be so small in terms of portion=.="and each plate cost around RM60

And guess who turns up!Joanne from India!haha, Vanakaam~and Hasmah from Malaysia!LOL

The guys

The girls who showed up

V-V

Latest pose in taking photos

The birthday Boy

Walking around Gardens

Three guys with lots of Lego

My first ever photo taken with Nel with this camera.Finally we meet up=.="

The never changing Joanne

Sean,Hasmah,Joanne and Nel

Sean and me

Matthew!the birthday boy!

Erm,poser?LOL.i'm getting really used to it nowadays

Joanne also can pose^^

Why you always so shy?Know her for so long already,some more she can speak Chinese!@@

No matter where it is,no matter how far our boundaries set,you will always have my support.I will always follow the shadow behind the choice u made,always will....

Hasmah!!!The Chinese spoken Indian girl^^

Uncensored scene in Rm 5 per entry toilet

Joanne,keep the best for the last.You should feel proud,LOL

Happy 20th birthday,Matt.We knew each other for 2 years plus,but i firmly believe our friendship is more than just friends.After all the joys we have been through,the laugh and jokes we shared together.The highs and lows in our journey is what that made us who we are today.As for today,there is no more 1 in your age.You should feel proud of it^^20 years 20 times!!!!LOL...i guess only Ben,Sean,you and me will understand it very well,haha..I feel glad we managed to celebrate your birthday with all the friends we treasured the most.As i know,the chances of me doing the same thing again next year would be very negligible.But,who gives a damn,at least we did it this year!!As for those missed up this year,you all still got chance to make it up next time.Next time this phrase will never disappear in our blood.Cheers~Looking forward for every gathering with you guys...


Oi,Matt!Our signature!
Lycan Rowls! Centaur Stomps!