High School till now

Since primary school life has been really sucks to me.To an ass hole who keep sneeze behind me and split his fucking saliva to my hair in standard 5,to the extend of betraying friendship due to 20marks.I think school life has been terrific in a way which i dislike it more than i enjoy it.Yeah life changed pretty much when enrolling into college.The sense of belonging among the gang made me become more open towards others,to someone who we called brothers,it has become a bond which mold my identity.But still,there is a sense of under accomplishment with the high school gang.Yesterday night was a day to remember,not because of how i hook up a girl,nor how well i dressed in the club,it's the taste of brotherhood which i lack of in High School.Having tat kind of feeling is undeniable one of the moment which i should have treasured for many years to come。At one point i'm living a life full of regrets,full of betrayal.But i guess i'm feeling much better now.At least from this moment,i can say it out loud,"my high school gang is one hell of a crazy bunch of people!"I'm just glad,glad i can still have the luxury to enjoy the friendship i lost in high school.For that,i'm grateful.For that,i would love to say thank you,for being able to be part of this group

FALSE ALARM

The good news is i don't have the damn mother fucking virus in my stomach,but the bad news is most probably i will got gastric pain if i didn't take control of my diet and food intake,this problem will proceed.From now on,i need to take some kind of gastric medicine for weeks.In the same time,need to be very careful with the hygienic level of the food.

Haiz...control control and control...

The thing i feared the most

I am having a mild constant abdominal pain ever since i got the fucking food poisoning in Penang few weeks ago.I got an injection tat time,and ever since then,this problem proceed until now.Doctor suspect i got hepatitis,undergo a blood test today.Sometimes i really will ask myself,are you really afraid of dying?I admit i'm afraid.Bearing to see my friend mom passed away tragically,i'm really sad for him,in the meantime i'm really scare.Things and phrase like what if keep popping out in my mind.I have completed the first phrase in my life.Regrets,sadness,and every possible thing that hurt me,ruin me,actually making me to become a better person.The second phrase is about to begin,i really hope i can fulfill my own expectation,to fulfill the duty as a son to take care of the family.

I really hope Friday report will be a good one,i still have so much thing to do...This is not the right time just yet...

First time again

I got my first moment again,this time it would be the tyre burst incident.Some stupid nail pierce into the tyre,and i guess you all know the remaining story.Went to have bah ku teh with chun den them.As usual,he will present his talk cock skill to all of us,accompanied by crap talk by the gang.Afternoon activity would be playing basketball with them.Ended up losing to a bunch of small kids.I don't really play,as i can't run much.Most of them are going back their Uni tomorrow.And the boring days lies long ahead.Guess i will find myself a job real soon.Right after i went to KL to settle off some business and perhaps gather with UCSI gangs.After all,this would be my last outing with them i guess.Life is really meaningless right now,really wanted to go back to Uni soon.And my damn offer letter haven't arrived,which is a pain in a fucking bucket.ZZZ..another day passed,with the burst tyre being the highlight of the day,LOL

Speechless night

Went to visit chun jiat just now.It's so hard to bear the tears when i saw him.He looked so exhausted.Knowing him for so long,this is the first time i saw him like this.I tried to hold my years by eating chewing gums.But that feeling seriously sucks to the max.His brother,his sister and all his family members are moarning for such tragedy.Life really like to play a twist in our life.The moment he told us,need to appreciate the moment u spend with ur parents,oh damn that line seriously make me feel so down.Truely,we need to appreciate what we have when we still have the chance.I think i will never understand how he feels right now,i feel so damn sad,but i'm sure no one is hurting more than him does.Besides telling him to be strong,i really don't know what else can i said.May god help him get through such period of sadness

RIP,aunty

Appreciate everything we have,never forget what our parents did for us.Never ever forget..

Praying for miracle

I was kinda piss with myself.Like what Ernest said,i really failed.Staying in SGT, just meet up with him few days ago,and i only get the news after someone staying in Canada asked me what happened.12 lives left us on this black day,10th October 2010, what hurts the most is it involve someone we know.The very last time i meet with his mom is during primary school.I still remember clearly how she looks,but all these doesn't really matters anymore.She has gone to heaven,resting in peace right now.At times,i really doubt how fragile a live can be.Within that moments,someone we know is hurting externally and internally.I didn't dare to call him, because i don't know what the fuck i should say to comfort him.I don't know how he feels,how hurt he is,how painful is him for losing someone so important in his life. Everyone are born to live,to taste highs and lows in life,but why life aren't fair enough to spare some mercy to those who never do any sin to this world?I know god is fair,everything are destined to happen, but i don't know why it has to be him and his family.It's just so so not fair.

When we left high school,we tend to get separated due to the distance.But everytime we meet up,there are always joy and cheers to chat with you.I feel really sad,i' mtrying to hold my tears,trying to act normal,trying to control my emotion when i think of this incident.To uncle who is still in ICU,i pray to god sincerely from bottom of my heart,please allow him to open his eyes again,to see his beloved son again.Please don't leave him and his family just yet.Please,god for the mercy of his soul,please allow him to continue this journey with his beloved ones..

Of course i won't start to point fingers at those MCA and UMNO babi at this stage.It's just so useless to do such thing.They are totally hopeless.I'm leaving this sick country, full of corruption,full of one sided race and the worst, a government who thinks nothing for his people.I'm just so tired to see everyone pointing fingers at each others.Those who act sad in front of the victim,act dumb and then act as representative of the people to say they will take legal action on those who are responsible for the accident.We all know that is not gonna happen.After all,this is Malaysia,a country full of pathetic politicians and the people who deserve way better than this..

Praying hard,hoping for miracle to happen, RIP to all the victims,and for most,our beloved aunty.Be strong,my friend

BALLS are getting smaller

Attending one wedding dinner today in melaka.It's actually my parents friend dinner.This fellow is damn fucking rich,can be said a big tycoon in tyre business.Ok,cut the crap,the real thing i wanted to say is,i'm getting more and more ballless,for the whole day i have been scopping for any hot chicks,obivously those aunty are out of my sight,and it turn out the beer girl are quite hot.But,the thing is i'm getting more and more thin face nowdays.I don't dare to do anything at all.Is it because of my parents are around?Or it's just that my skill are rusting?Or am i trying to be a good boy now?I feel kinda confused right now.May be i really lack the real deal to apporach ladies after all.All kinds of bullshits are nothing when you canot perform the killer blow at the end.May be i have been hibernating too long at home.May be it's a good thing after all.Please forgive me for being so random,LOL...

What's on my mind

The first news is,i sprain my ankle again,the same old spot,left ankle.Got it while playing futsal with Anus Pang them.It's getting really irritating at times but i should blame myself for forgetting to bandage it while doing any sport.It's gonna take like 5 days before the major part healed,and it is gonna take like weeks to heal completely..The worst part,i need to attend wedding dinner in tis coming Sunday.Fuckard to the max,zz

Second part,sometimes i really wonder why human are mean to be forgetful?I thought friendship are mean to be erternal,esecially the one i have in college.It truely define me,but as years passed,as each of us tend to get on to our life,our distance has become further again.Meeting up with new frens tend to make plp forget.I guess distance after all is the most mortal tool to end an friendship.May be i'm getting emo all of the sudden,but i really miss pm14,as a matter of fact,i kinda miss Uni life,although i do know i never belong there.They are a bunch of nice mates,but it's jsut not mean for me like what i have in college.I'm mixing better with my high school frens nowaday.Partly it's due to the fact we haven't mix for quite a while,so we tend to be more formal everytime we chat...Of course there are some like Anus Pang who did cursing all the time,i but i'm kinda glad,at least it allows me to forget my past at certain point of view.

My blog is so fucking dead until the point i only got one visitors nowdays.and i really miss her,but it's so hard to date her out.May be my skils aren't good enough for her...what else can i say,she is an Ex dino girl..Ain't gonna expect the date to happen so fast...

I hope i can get my damn offer letter as soon as possible,it's getting really annoying to check my mail box and there aren't update from Otago

I miss my frens...when is our next trip?when is the time i can truely blow water again??ZZZ