2011

The plan for 2011? I think it's gonna be pretty simple . Try to settle down in NZ.Get adapt to their study method and don't fail in exams,LOL. I think it won't be too boring to stay in my new flat,the clubs are like 2 minutes walk from my place and the entrance fee is FREE,which is a good sign for a light drinker like me XD

For all the sins who i have commit in 2010,i won't beg for forgiveness, as it has already be done. Make quite a number of wrong calls, took some lousy shots and bang some idiot car. I guess it's a process of learning. In a hard way or not,doesn't really matter after all. Taking an assumption of this,banging a ugly chicks does make you looked like an idiot,but in the process,u will realize how ugly she is,thus you won't bang any inferior one anymore. This is lesson number one. Lesson number two would be she is so ugly until it gives you nightmare every time you tried to sleep ,thus making you don't have the guts to for ugly shit again. This kind of comparison make it sounds so damn wrong,LMAO

Setting a target is really hard,i can't imagine what will i become when i go over there. Getting a girlfriend sounds not bad?Either way,i just wanna lay down for this year. Try to keep low profile, and tried not to do some dumb ass mistake again=.="

Happy 2011

2010

Actually i don't know what have i done for the past 364 days? Getting into a Uni,which is after all not my desired one kills off the mood at times. No doubt i manage to know some friends which are at times really fun and joyful.But at the end,i don't really think i got the kind of soul mate like in college. Partly due to the fact i am leaving for sure,i don't really leave much more mark on that uni. After all, everything in there sucks. From the lecturer to the management till the facilities,everything is worthless piece of shit . Glad i still have a bunch of friends to share my laugh at times. Perhaps I think it's a blessing to get to know them.

Day passing with my bond with my college mates getting further and further. May be everyone knew it will comes except me. At time i don't really wanna grow up. Growing means extra burden,extra commitments. But still,i manage to have a small gathering with most of them during my birthday,which is consider fortunate as i got the most number of attendances for my birthday. The good sign is Nel got herself a boyfriend,who suppose to be quite nice i guess,i don't get to know him at all.Farrah and Jon are in the stable zone,which has no surprise at all .Though he is leaving to aus,i don't see a problem arising for this two. I have no idea what has happen to Sean,cause i only meet him like twice this year, but he is getting into the mature trend,going to clubs,and i think he is doing pretty fine. Matthew is the stubborn fellow who has no changes at all,addicted to Dota, study,,manga,anime and his usual eating pattern. Ben is having quite a harsh time in Imu, trying to survive in the so called pressurized world of medicine. Really has not much time to meet him nowadays due to complicated time table, or sometimes we do have to admit,we are lazy. Kai lun is rusting in Russia,really hoped he can cope with it.May be get herself a hot russian chick?Ops,i have no doubts Yee thong will kill me for saying this. Speaking of her,well,i don't get to see her at all.Same applied to Kai zia who is missing in action all the time. Chai yee is back from Aus,but again the same thing,she is too busy with her friends. To tell you the truth,i didn't actually wan all this to happen,but what cam we do?Everyone has their path to walk on, I guess the memories are fading. And i almost forgot victor who suppose to be in Ireland,but having vacation in US,wait,was it UK. No idea at all. This is how our college mates get separated,till the part even the damn son don't know his mom get stung by jelly fish. Reality does hurt isn't it?

The ending of 2010 would be getting closer to my high school mates. Went to clubs,drinking alcohol seems like are the things we gotta do for sure. But,it is a good sign. At least i hope they will still remember my presence. Glad i make it up for the past. OH ya,got my first serious accident at the end of the year,the whole bumper crashed. Seriously taking it as a harsh lesson,to value my life,and to drive more carefully. RIP to CJ mother who has pass away in an accident. Glad you make it through that period.Be strong,my friend. And to R,who broke up not long ago. Dudes are everywhere,learn to let go...

Never be

Getting visa done mark the end of my disastrous process which resulting me coming up to kl more than 3 times.Getting ready and waiting to fly is a process i have been ready to take up,not until today.Back from Thailand, went to clubs with friends, getting ready to work before flying should be a continues process.But,something went wrong. The wrong part being i realized i love my parents so much after all this time. Going oversea,leaving everything,never in my life i would realize such feeling is so hard to be bear.Things which are meaningless to me for the past few years seems to be the most important thing for now on. Leaving Malaysia is my dream,but leaving someone who is so important in my life for 2 years,it's such an unbearable situation. No one can actually understand me nowadays. I tend to get the frequency of getting emotional all of the sudden.Every time such feeling appears,i realized all my friends will be at their own. I 'm not blaming anyone for that, somehow i feel that it is a sign,a sign notifying me to be stronger. Yet,i collapse. The true is, i collapse without a warning. I rejected a job which is in my hand, i'm going home. I wanted to spend more time with my family,as i know,i won't be seeing any sooner after February 15th..Forgive me for being such a weakened person,i don't intend to be,but i really can't let go. Realizing the importance other than money is such a hard task. I learned it today,to back down when the times are right.

Treasuring everything i have for now,as there will be nothing but ashes afterwards...

BAD MOOD

seriously not in the mood!

Accident

A normal futsal day turn out to be an accident which cost my back bumper to crash.The left part is totally crashed=.=" It's my mistake to make a u turn there,but is she blind? I'm pretty sure there is no car when i turn.So you can imagine how fast she is driving.If she brake a little bit earlier,things like this ain't gonna happen. But what can i say?It's a SHE,and she is a Malay. The only thing worst than kicking your ass is to involve an accident with a female.

I gonna waste like 2k to fix my damn fucking old car. I'm the one who is stupid enough to make a u turn at that fucking spot after all. Lodge a report just now,and i really don't want to talk about the coffee money and Malay rights here. It is pointless...all my mom said is...drive safely next time...LAME, but it's a fact

What's the point

Frankly, i was really piss for the whole day.Except brightening my day with friend telling me he will let me stay in subang for 1 month, my mind is really fucked up. I went for badminton today,with my hometown friends,as they have finished their exam. Well,i will skip the badminton part,cause i really not into this sport. Hanging out and chilling out with them at night is alright,but no one actually realize i'm really sad. Sad to be put in such situation. Disappointed to be in such dilemma. There is nothing i can do to stop such art. I have no right to control ones life,but why it has to me.Why must one's action will have such miserable impact in others' life. It is so unfair to both of us,but what can i do?I'm so helpless, i'm praying for miracles each day,hoping i don't have to bear such tremendous pressure,but i have failed. I learned to let go at times,but volcano eruption will always happen without warning. I need to learn,i need to bucked up, i still need to bear such guilt for a certain time.

no point hating someone that you can't control in your life. Unfair,but it's the honest truth. LIVE with it,die with it..

I think no one can actually understand what m i talking about,which is a good thing after all.

Slow Counting Down

Went for a basketball game in Abdullah Court today.Warming up with 2 small kids while waiting the high school gang to appear and chase the kids away.Reason?They wanted to play full court! Getting older does have lots of advantages,such as you will always being asked to join in. These kids seriously can run,i run full court for 15 minutes,finish some lay ups and some shooting,i started to feel the impact of getting old.As usual when tired,i tend to stay at one side of the court waiting to play chickens.LOL,still manage to get some easy layups.After all,they are kids,it's so easy to prank them. The major talking for the whole evening is i'm driving without license.Imagining there is a damn police block in front,well if that happens,i am seriously dead.I can't even bribe the coffee king as i only bring my car keys along,LOL..At the end,of course i make it to the safe land in one piece,for that,i would love to have thanked all the policemen for their laziness in the evening.Thank you so much~

Well,i left like 70 something days in Malaysia. No matter how i gonna face it,it's sad to leave. Leaving as in i won't come back so soon.So soon as in two years. 2 years is what it takes to make our friendship distanced even further. I remembered clearly the very last time pm14 organized a gathering. All it takes is just few blinking of eyes,few breath of air,and everyone changed. Some are following the mature trend,while some remain the same. the honest truth is,things will never remain the same again. When can we organize another trip together?When can we actually share our laugh like what we used to be.As reality check in, i wonder can we actually called ourselves brothers anymore? The family bond is loosen, we have to admit physical accompanies remain the most dominant force which enclosed our friendship.Yet,everything is starting to get out of shape.Is this the end of everything??Can you guys actually still remember my presence after two years. I'm afraid.I am living in fear i might actually demolish your figure in my mind.Reluctantly,everyone will start to forget each others.Such a cruel statement to be made yet it is so true.

Staying in hometown,accompany my mom,playing with computers,playing basketballs made me realize i really miss school time. I do admit the few gathering i have with my high school mates are some of the highlights in my life. I never actually know it can be so fun.Too bad clock is ticking,and i only can hope we can have few more gathering before i fly.But first,i gonna wait till you guys finish your exams.Anticipated the time we go HUAT again!!

Can anyone actually understand how i feel?Things which are in my gasp, and i'm letting it go because i have to,but the feeling is hard to bear.Seriously don't know what the hell is wrong with my mind right now. Forgive me for posting an emotional post..but besides being emo,what else can i do?

I miss everything...Counting down seriously SUCKS