Unwanted Feeling

Waking up this morning, realizing it's already Monday, meaning it's time to do reports and start studying seriously piss me off,but in the same time, what have i done in the past 2 days?Eat,sleep,laptop and laptop. No hanging out with friends like old time sake,i guess a lot really changed.

If you asked me again am i regret coming over here, i will still stay firm with the same things i told you last time. I cannot have any regrets, since this is the choice i made. There will always be things which made you really unhappy, such as when you have this strange feeling you can't mix in the conversation. Probably i am rushing things up,i wanted to change my past 20 years into a culture with so much differences. Wonder why all my friends who study in oversea don't really have much white friends, i guess i understand it now. That doesn't mean that i don't like them, we have some good times here. Though i know would be much happier if i decided to stay in the asian flat. At the end, i lost to one word and one word only, money.

With money,i can travel around during breaks now like, with money,i can eat every thing i always wanted to try, i can party like a damn fucking rock star. Unfortunately,i don't. My mom has sacrifice too much for me too fool around like tat. It seems strange i will have such feeling?Is it because of maturity which made me have such old fashion feeling?

I guess as i'm getting old, i started to think like an adult, which at times can be really frustrating , it made you can't do things you wanted to. But this is just part of life where you have to endure. After all, living the life with a smiley face is way better to keep thinking how fuck you life could be. Though i started to have such thought, constantly remind myself my main purpose of coming does helps a lot.

I hate my class. As a matter of fact, i don't really like my classmates. Some singaporean who is so kia su, but self proclaim themselves to be intensively educated=.=" Don't laugh my fucking ass off,dude. And there is another idiot who keep asking questions in the class,with a dick gay voice and,the worst part, he is so botany type of guy. That means he said himself enjoying studying and have good grade,and whatever shit he is, he is just so not into my league. I don't like to be asked, hey how's your grade? Got A o not? I really don't want to have this kind of lifestyle again, it's seriously sucks!

It has been 2 months, and i am pretty sure i don't really have a nice friends to hang out with. I don't miss my mom too much, probably due to the fact we video chat more than 2 times per days. I do miss those idiots back home. As he said, 那是我们都回不去的从前, but i do hope our friendship will never end...

To pm14,i seriously don't get the clue of creating a facebook page and keep telling each other, so long no see you, and some don't even know where are they studying, O.o..At times the WTF line will keep popping out.Don't feel offended,vic.It is just a sad truth.

Some takes years to settle down here, i can't expect more.I'm coping well but it's not as easy as it looks like,not when you considering you straight jump into second year without any friends joining you.Not to mention you straight flatting with foreign people with no chinese communication involved. Did i mention i never hold a pan for the past 20 years and now i can cook almost every single shit u wanted me to make for you? I'm catching up, but i just hope i can be better.

Time to do dickhead reports.