Doubt

I seriously doubt myself can survive here for 2 years?I don't even think i will migrate here,life without friends are so hard to be bear.The worst part,those fucking americans have their own gang before they come here.Life is getting really tough,i learned to make my first ever pasta,but so far the taste is just average.

I hope i can make some friends during the ori weeks.Life has been a pain in an ass for...Seriously thinking i am at the edge of giving up,but i will hang on.This is a process of learning which cause 80k a year.I simply can't afford to waste it.

Really hope i can make some good friends over here.PEace and out!

The real taste of life

Growing up in a family with the mom working her ass off to give everything she could possible afford is a definite blessing.Never did i realize how hard living at my own can be,not until now,where i was thousand miles away from home,staying in a fucking cold country where the summer is just like winter full of wind.

To tell you the truth,i am really worry i won't be able to last that long. 2 years everything at my own,damn,this really sucks!I wanted this,i wanted the taste off being in oversea.Hell yeah i finally got the taste of it,but life is not so perfect. I expected it to be tough,but i have no idea it will be this tough. Do i really need to hang on bread for 2 years?I already start to get sick of it.There is no pans or anything which works well for me,i don't even know how to cook spaggeti with the pot.I seriously feel like giving up right now.No one is there for me when i need them,can i survive during the winter?This is so fucking unbelievable!

I can't give up right now.It is tough living here.Bu t i will try to survive,i have to,what other choice when i have already throw 100k into this shit.God please give me the strength to continue this journey. I really hope my course mates are good,but,i have a feeling i might be facing disappointment.

Biting my lips to survive

Reunion Lunch

Yeah,thanks to the cock sucking flood,my mom has less customer this year. Everyone is so busy cleaning their house,resulting them to forget to pay my mom a visit. Due to the economic failure all around the world, and the phobia of me asking money from them to further studies in oversea.P.S,i never ask from them!Everyone seems reluctant to talk about money this time. No more how much they earn, no more selling of houses,no more stock in the market. It is just a simple lunch.

At this moment, my mind is kinda blank. There is around less than 14 days before i leave this sickening country, the latest being the army force and government civil services asking money before rescuing you out of the flood. But again i don't feel the excitement of going to oversea at all.May be this is just a temporary diffusion into my brain cell.

MMU kids are going back to their Uni,which mean less people for gathering. I guess i really laying low this time.No more trip planning,no more fancy fancy gathering,just slowly wait the time before i fly.

Don't know why i have such feeling.i have a feeling we won't be close when we get over there.May be it is due to the fact we know each other too well here. I think we will still keep in touch,but i won't really mix into your life i guess.Worry your boyfriend might actually think i wanted to court you ,i admit i am quite a stalker if i wanted to,but you are really not my type seriously..Forgive me for saying it here,after all,i no wanna quarrel with you just because of such thing. No matter what, we are still friends.

Damn,i feel so fucking empty right now.Lots of thing came up into my fucking mind.Even my aunt also said i become more and more quiet nowadays. People really changed,especially during the process of growing up.Taking the big shots,and feeling the impact of falling down,disaster which stroke you so painfully until you can't forgive yourself for the sins you have committed.Growing to be a man is tough,but being one is even harder.