Why Me

While thursday is suppose to be a boring day starting with our beloved self torturing lecturer,Dr lee.After the class,we chill at the library.Disaster struck when someone reminded me i accidently knock our chem lecturer last week.I remembered i was rushing back from toilet,when i opened the door,i knocked her.What on earth is she doing behind the door??Aren't you smart enough to know doors are made to be open?She asked for my name while we were waiting for the lift.And finally...2012 came today!!The joker in the class,Fong keep toying with her.And then,he ended up being called to the front to do monkey shows.After choosing two black girls as his assistants,as he was asked to pick 2 girls who he liked.The lecturer asked him to choose one guy.He said anyone with green shirt?I was like WTH!!!i was wearing a green army shirts.For instance,i bend my head down,trying to cover myself as much as i could.But,those girls who sat behind me,besides me all pointed at me!!There were more than 10 fingers pointed at me!!!The funny thing was i don't even know them!!!Army shirt suppose to have camoflauge effect!!What on earth is happening today??Then Fong and the gang keep telling her my name.And of course for sure,she said,the one with green army shirt,Ethan,right??Please come to the front~~I was freaked out in an instance,she can remember my name since last week=.=I was forced to come out and became the circus monkey!!Well then,i needed to choose two more girls,i wanted to choose my gangs,but i knew they will kill me if i chose them.At the end,i chose orange milk and cai san.Note:orange milk is so innocent,haha,because she did nothing wrong.Well,don't blame me,blame the white shirts,or least blame the circus boss!The lamest part is,we needed to pretend as water molecule,with me as the oxygen,and the 2 girls as hydrogen=.=""that is so freaking lame.The worst part,i needed to think of a way to connect with them,something like a covalent bond between hydrogen and oxygen,I came up with a brilliant idea-touch each other finger!i have no idea why everyone is clapping,that was so dumb.After the touching touching show,we went back to our own seat.The true nightmare began,as she already remembered my name,so she tend to call my name to go out to do questions.I was suppose to keep extremely low profile in the class,yet i ended up as the superstar clown of the day.Worst,i will get called all the time each time we have our chemistry class.WHY WHY WHY it has to be me!!!GOD DAMMIT!!!!May lord have mercy on my soul T.T

The Rise of A Hero

Introducing PM14

It has been so long since that day i first arrived in taylor block c building.Entering a classroom which has already full of people sitting respectively.Everyone is so nerdy looking,which kinda creep me out.There aren't much seat left,there is only one seat left,which is besides a bald guy.Looked at him made me feel piss,he looked like one of those snobbish bastard from kuan yew high school.But i don't really have a choice as there aren't any seat left.After a while,this fellow finally say hi to me.Ni hao~ni na li de?then i replied with a firm line,i from johor.He is from johor as well,somemore from the place known as JB!!I made the conclusion he is from kuan yew chinese independent school,LOL...For your information,This fellow is Benjamin Chua,never in my life i will realise he will be my best mate throughout the one and half year.Then,the stupid memorising game began.Some idiots tried to cheer us up by playing some bla bla game.As a matter of fact,i can't even remember a single name in the class except the part a girl lost the last game and were asked to sing a song which at the end didn't sing but still received clap,LOL.Few days passed,ben and i somehow for some unknown reason get along very well.I think for most of the classes i only mix with him.We wore the same colour clothes,until the part we showed our boxes colour which turn out to be the same for not just once,but tons of times.Guess the second fellow i know is Victor Ling.This fellow always mix with Aloysius,a fit muscular looking macha.Victor is very good at socializing with others,the fact that he was chosen as the class rep kinda proved it,though partly it was due to his suggestion to photocopy textbooks,LOL.The third one would be my god brother Jonathan.He is one of the most laid back guy i ever seen.He seem very comfortable with everything,though things changed a bit nowadays.After some time,i tend to be closer to one of the girl in the class,Nellie,who eventually becoming my god mother.This girl is pure banana,if u think my chinese is funny,you should listen to the way she talked in chinese,LOL.Born and breed in Pj,she is definitely the type you no want to mess with.After all,she is the one who introduce me the world of Clubbing,@@.Then,it would have to be DFJ king,Sean Kingston!Rich guy from Terengganu who turn out to be the big brother in the 4 brother gang.Sean is very nice,he can mix with anyone easily.I always sit beside a girl in the first sem.She is a smart ass who watched shows all the time and end up with AAA result in the class.Her name is Elena,or i called her dear,lol.Weeks passed and then there is a new student who transfer to our class.A broad shoulder guy.At first i really hate him!The way he sit,the way he act,is seriously piss me off.Ben and i were saying some shit stuff about him,making fun of his name-Matthew Kang.Actually he didn't talk much at the beginning because he want to act cool,which end up with disastrous result.But then,as time flew,we turned out to be partners who can even share secrets.P.S,this fellow liked to act cool when he is new to the surrounding,but once he get adapted,he can be more that just as friend.Our relationship becomes better and better each days,The moment that shaped up our relationship would be the day we have our moral class.Throughout the moral classes,i get to know chai yee,sin yen,agnes,joannne,yee thong,farrah,kai zia,ping wern,brenda,andrew,hasmah,,jun shuo and sunil.Well,to simplify thing,I would say sin yee and agnes were always together.They don't talk much to others.You have to approach them first if you wannna talk to them.Eventually things changed at the final sem,when we get closer and closer as friends and at the point they were someone that cannot be missed in any event. Joanne,Kai Zia and chai yee are the ladies gang,anything that related to gossip,shopping and chi chat would involve them.In the same time,They are also the brains in the class,those hardworking study type who excel in exams,LOL.Yee thong is a hardcore Liverpool fan who resemble half the ladies gang,because sometimes she mix with the ladies gang,sometimes she doesn't.Ping Wern is a soft spoken girl who don't like to talk when hanging out,but talks a lot in sms,LOL.Hasmah is an Indian Muslim,a nice friend who can speak chinese^^.Farrah is a malay chinese who is damn good in maths.She is my sister in law,hehe.She has been very supportive of me throughout the year.After all,she did influenced my decision in choosing food science.Jun Shuo and Sunil would be the Harold and Kumar!Skipping class,smoking,and all the so called bad stuff are glued to them,but they are good friends,though they rarely mix with us throughout the years.Andrew is a music genius,but having some minor problem mixing with some of us due to his thinking,but the guys never have a problem with him.Brenda is 14 years old girl.Her education pathway is very different from ours as she skip pmr and spm,and took o level at the age of 13.First sem ended lots of people leaving including mei sing,ping wern and aloysius.At a point i was considering withdraw from the programme due to some personal issue,but the story ended up with me sticking with the class.WAIT wait wait,there is another guy.He is not from Pm14!!as matter of fact,he is thousand miles away from me right now.Mr pm 4!He rarely mix with his classmate.The reason is due to the fact he always mix with us.His name is Kai Lun,pm14 VIP!

Monday is so not my day

Well,the whole setup is made up encountering the bitch,watching flip hair show,recently flip jackets,updated already.I guess the anticipated moment is when she is gonna flip her bras,phew...After one and half hours of vigorous vomit,semi faint,partially dead lecture.Here comes our beloved Dr Lee's class.With his beloved soft spoken tones,with the addition of repeating the same line again and again,i totally can enter the world of paradise by sleeping with my eyes open.Finally,we can escape this cruel world by having a small break before we depart for a wild and slacky adventure with our Mr ong,with his standard line-am i insulting you by teaching you all these stuff??Slacky time normally passes pretty fast compared to sensational heart attack chemistry mixture reaction.The slowest is still the insomnia rehabilitation though...Here we go again,monday has arrived

The Idiot I Used to Be

I guess i can said the whole story started in 5 years ago.Back then i was a dumb ass who know nothing but to stick to my imagination.Few years ago,i don't even have the guts to talk to a girl.I remember myself as someone who was very ill tempered,stubborn and of course snobbish.Who can i blame?I was brought up with everything served right in front of me.I was blessed with undefined love that my mom has sacrificed for me.I was the only child,who used to believe the world is mine.Yet,twist and turn in high school made me realized how fragile a soul being can be in this community.I wasn't the favourite friend in my high school due to 3 simple reason-arrogant,nucklehead and selfish.Some of my high school mates simply can't tolerate with my behaviour.Although they never say anything,somehow as time passes,i began to realize i wasn't approved in their so called gang.I just find it hard to adapt to their world.For tons of times i tried to fit in,but i simply gave up after some time because it ain't easy to change who i am.Part of the reason is obvious isn't it?With my kind of punk ass attitude,i felt that i have a tough period throughout my high school year.As i grow older,i started to realize,i don't have anyone to lean on to when i was in shit mode.But then,i simply refuse to back down.I firmly believe with what i hold onto for years,i never intend to change myself for others.I'm sorry i can't tell you what changed me at the end,because it's something personal.For once and for all,i'm just glad i made it through the toughest period in my life.I'm sorry for all the mess that i have caused in high school.I will never ask for your forgiveness,because the only way to reduce my sin,is to treasure and value the friendship i have for now.This is the least i can do.

Extinction

This post was written without fear or favour, and it is up to us to digest individually the truth of the matter, especially for all Malaysians (irrespective of race, colour, creed or religion).

To: The highly respected Tun Mahathir,

China is coming up, India is coming up, Vietnam is coming up and now even Russia is on the rise. In this flat world that is all wired up and regardless whether we are Malaysian Malay, Chinese or Indian, and if Malaysia does not progress, all of us would become history of this country!

Without the Malay, Chinese could not do well in the country and without the Chinese, Malay would not do well. Both have to work together to bring up Malaysia and mitigate the ascute impact that is being brought about by the globalisation.

For me, a true leader is someone who has the foresight that not only focuses on one particular group in the country but take care of the future of everyone. A good leader is someone who knows what is the biggest threat the country is facing and directs the people to fight off the threat. A leader is also someone who is impartial that has the ability to promote harmony in the country for a long period of time.

UMNO is a political loser that leads the country to nowhere. They do not understand what is going on in the outside world. They have no clue where Malaysia will be in the next 30 years. With the 3 new superpowers, i.e India, China and Russia standing tall and high together with the USA and the Europe Union, they do not know what kind of world it would be and how Malaysia is going to compete and share the ever smaller slice of cake of the world economy. They only know how to get the Malays to fight with other Non-Malays on tiny issues within Malaysia , while these races know jolly well that the issues they are fighting are trivial and are totally self-satisfying.

UMNO does not give a damn to how the poor Malays are going to live in the future and they do not care about the real benefits of the poor Malays. They only want the votes from them. The NEP is a good evidence on how they benefit the cronies, instead of the poor Malays. Despite all their despicable acts they are still in the power.

The highly respected Tun,

As you are aware, the Malays control the rights to all the lands and all other natural resources in this country. They control all government institutions, GLC and State owned companies. The Malays dominate the lawmaking process in Malaysia ; The Malays control the decision making process in formulating the economy policies. The Malays own the largest national assets and the Malays are given shares in the public listed companies for free. The Malays have also been given all kind of priorities when it comes to buying properties, awarding of public contracts, tertiary education opportunities, awarding of scholarships and even getting a job in government departments.

With all these privileges and rights enjoyed by the Malays, you are saying nothing has been done enough to help the Malays to catch up with other races, mainly the Chinese. Then what else should Malaysia do to satisfy the Malays? Did the Chinese seize or rob anything away from the Malays or was all their wealth, a result of their hard work? If it is all due to their hard work, why do you say it is unfair? I don't quite get your point here.

May I humbly ask you what do you expect the Chinese to do if your so-called NEP did not achieve the desired result? Would the Malays be happy if the ethnic Chinese in this country do any of the followings:

- surrender their assets and hard earned money to the Malays unconditionally;
- not to engage in any business activities;
- not to score As in all sort of examinations;
- not to make money that is more than the Malays are earning;
- not to advance to higher education; or
- renounce their citizenships and go back to China or migrate to some other countries?

I am a foreigner but I am surprised that your intention is to divide your own country. I think you are mainly targeting the Chinese.. Frankly, tell us, what do you expect the Chinese to do in order to achieve what is so called "equality" meant by you?

Tun, after all these criticism you have against the present government, I feel that you are starting to lose your rationality on your arguments. You have run out of good reasons to convince us. I guess it could be due to your accumulating jealousy of Mr Lee Kuan Yew, your former counterpart in Singapore .

But reality is always hard to accept. No matter how, you have to accept the fact that he is regarded the Father of Singapore but you are not regarded the Father of Malaysia; you have to accept the fact that Mr Lee is able to influence the government of Singapore until the day he dies but you have not been able to influence the government from the moment you stepped down as PM.

You must also accept the fact that he is still very popular on the world stage and a leader respected by many but you are not quite. Because of these jealousies, you are starting to accumulate imbalances in yourself that leads you to embark on a series of action to attack your successors..
It is very obvious that you are not happy when your successors are more popular than you. Is there any good of doing that? What is your intention? Can't you take it easy?

During your time, you criticised most of the developed countries especially the Western Countries out of jealousy and after stepping down as PM you criticise every single soul remained in the cabinet for not listening to you. When will you ever stop criticising any people? Can't you respect the decision of others?

Back to your recent blog, is there anything wrong with the Chinese in this country?
Did they seize or rob the money away from the Malays?
Did they have the ability to come out with any policies to marginalise the Malays?
Did they dominate the lawmaking process of this country?
Did they formulate the economy policies in this country?
Did they control the government departments in this country?
Did they control the state owned companies and GLC in this country?
Did they control the country's largest oil companies and banks?

You know the answer, right?

Malays are the ones who dominate the the lawmaking process of this country;
Malays are the ones that formulate the economy policies in this country that favours the Malays.
Malays are the ones that control the government departments, state owned companies and GLC.
Malays are the ones that control the funds in this country.
Malays are also the ones that control the largest oil companies and banking industry in this country.
With all these rights enjoyed by the Malays, what else do you want the Chinese to do?
Surrender their houses and savings and their wealth that they earned with their hard work to the Malays? Or ask all the Chinese to renounce their citizenship and go back to China ?

Have you ever thought of the fact after 30 years of implementing NEP, why it does not achieve the desired result? Or it does achieve but being denied.

Under the NEP there are a series of policies that favors the Malays. If with all these policies, it still does not give the Malays what they want, what else do you want the Chinese to do? Is the Chinese to be blamed because they are too hard working? Or the Malays to be blamed because they do not treasure the opportunities have given?

You know very well the NEP has been misused and it only benefits the cronies... So if you have designed NEP to only benefits the cronies, please don't say it is the problem of Chinese that NEP does not achieve its result. It has nothing to do with the Chinese but NEP and the Malay themselves.

This is a globalised world, Chinese and Malays should not be fighting against each other because Malaysia is competing with other countries. China used to be backward and lagging behind Malaysia but now they have caught up and have even surpassed Malaysia . Can we ask them to slow down their development? If they refuse to listen, can we make a complaint to the United Nations that China is developing too fast and this is very unfair to Malaysia , which adapts a more passive approach? Who gives you the right to prevent others from progressing?

Who do you think you are? This is a flat world (Obviously Tun did not read the book named "The World is Flat"). Don't be so narrow minded to only focus on the Chinese or Malay in Malaysia . We should now look at the world as a flat world. If Malaysia does not progress, no matter we are Malays or Chinese, we would be extinct one day!

Confession as a son

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Bitch,Grandpa,Slack

I finally met one of the bitchest girl in UCSI,the problem is,she is not a girl,she is a reaching 30 dead zone woman,and definitely not a virgin,and it happens to be my new semester uni chemistry 2 lecturer.I guess 99.9% of my classmate hate her as much as i do,may be some freaks might like her?but it would definitely need a miracle for it happen though.The moment i entered my first lecture,i realized i'm looking at a fuck face!she happened to be so new (second sem teaching chem2) and yet she is showing she has tons of experiences=.=oh pls for christ sake,you are never convincing enough to do that.She talks lots of rubbish,asked us to be punctual,the funny thing is she even ask us not to be rude to her??It's like she is being harrashed before??The worst part is the answering part.It is so boring just to be in the class,now with her even more 'challenging' question,it makes the class looked exactly like Hogwarts defence in the dark art class controlled by Dolores Umbridge.Did i mention punctuality just now??She asked us to be punctual,but she has to punish us for being late,so she kept us for extra 15 minutes so that we can miss the next class.Wow,i'm so impress with her theory of punctuality!Another ugly scene which happend during the lecture is,she liked to flip her hair while teaching?It annoys a lot of us.With your kind of pretty face,it would make the model agency bankrupt.So,please for the sake of the modelling agency,tried not to do that often,would cha?The second class happened to be structural biochem.The fellow is some kind of part time lecture in UCSI who used to be a full timer in UPM.At least this is what he trying to tell us in may be 15 minutes time?This fellow is damn slow,he liked to repeat his line again and again.It can be pretty be boring,but i think i can bear with it.After all,we have to respect lecturer who deserved to be respected.The slack would be my so called geometry lecturer.This fellow is very random,he told us not to study in first 2 weeks and then die h@rd for third week onwards till the end.Well,what can i say?i'm kinda speechless when he tried extremely hard to keep us for another 5 minutes before dismissing the class.Just as i expected,this will be A LONG AND TOUGH SEMESTER.may the god have mercy on my soul...

Super SHORT hair

It has been four months since i decide to follow the trend-super short hair.I always think that short hair sucks,but then what other choice do i have???i was blessed with lots and lots of thick hair,but in the same time,such genes makes me can't keep long hair. Everytime i tried to keep long hair like those korean drama series idols,i end up like a mushroom.I can have my desired hair style if i go for rebonding,but then,it will only last for days,the best is one week because my hair grow extremely fast.Guess i have to stick with this hairstyle for quite some time,may be after new year i will tried something new??LOL,again,good bye my long hair,i missed you all but i just can't afford to keep rebonding my hair all the time...