The touch

I have been lacking of confidence ever since i got here.Sometimes trying to hide it is kinda tough, because i tend to get really lonely here. What do you expect? I have everything back home, i own the uni,i have everything i need, where else i have to start everything again here.

At times it can be frustrating, but the feeling, it is coming back. I can feel it is getting better, it won't take long.....

Thank you for always being with me, though i never actually tell you, cause i don't want you to worry, but you always have faith me, and i will have to live up to that expectation, to be a better man.

never forget the day u try to hide your tears when i am boarding the plane, all the oath i made when i sat down in the plane. Never truly understand how hard it is for you to see your only child leaving, i know it has been tough for you.

I will never forget the oath i made, 4 more years are all it is gonna take. God please, let me fulfill the promise i made to the woman i loved the most

Happy Mothers day
I love you,mom

Final charge towards the ending of semester 1

oh well,mid semester break is gonna end tonight, been doing nothing much for whole week. Again,money is the reason why i don't feel like traveling. Unlike my American flatmates, who spend the whole week, some even skip class to go earlier, they just get home today. Totally worn exhaust i guess,i bet they have lots of fun. Visiting new places etc,that is so nice, at times the feel of envy pierce straight through the heart,but again, i am fine with it.

Did some work during the week is all i do for the beginning of the break.Get to hang out with som Asians in the middle of the week. Went to karaoke, tried some chopsticks 101 food, it's a chinese restaurant, with some really good food, but it's kinda expensive,if u convert it into the useless ringgit. In the same time, get to try some Indian curry, The owner is a Punjabi@@ Laugh my ass off when i see those NZ born chinese sweating so vigorously just to eat some medium spicy food. Got one even cried for eating mild shit,lol

Get to hang out in some flat, playing some monopoly in Momos, a karaoke place run by some chinese, play some left four dead 2.That basically conclude my boring weekend. I have 1 midterm, all about lab materias, 1 presentation, 2 more reports and the finals. To be honest, i know i can handle this semester well, cause i only take 3 papers. Next semester is gonna be hell.

After all,just survive this semester, face shits with fist, empty loneliness by cooking, missing those idiots back home by making more new friends. And here we go again , semester resumes.

I kinda feel like i get worse in blogging, probably due to the weather here. It get colder and colder each day. Need to find the thrust, the desire to move forward.